Words and phrases

claw it way out

claw作為動(dòng)詞有四個(gè)意思：

1）move as if by clawing, seizing, or digging. Eg: They clawed their way to the top of the the mountain.

2)clutch as if in panic Eg: She clawed the doorknop.

3)scratch, scrape, pull, or dig with claws or nails.

4) attack as if with claws

claw在這篇文中指將過往挖出來(lái)其屏，這份回憶并不輕松，加之前面作者用過bury一詞（It's wrong what they say about the past, I've learned, about how you can bury it）,所以這里取第二解釋clutch as if in panic的引申義比較合適譬淳，帶有一些痛苦徘溢。這是用remember，recall砂轻，retrieve等一些可能我自己寫會(huì)用的詞表達(dá)不出來(lái)的奔誓。

deny

1) to declare untrue; assert to be false. Eg: A senior officer denied that any sensitive dociments had been stored there.

2) to refuse to believe, reject. Eg: deny the existence of evil spirit

3) to refuse to recognize or acknowledge, disavow. Eg: The officer denied any wrongdoing.

4) to refuse to fulfill the request or expectations to. Eg: It is hard to deny a child.

5）to withhold something from, refuse to give.

deny這個(gè)詞并不陌生，但熟悉的詞很多時(shí)候我們只熟悉它的一個(gè)意思搔涝。拒絕我第一反應(yīng)總是refuse厨喂，deny一般我只會(huì)用否認(rèn)這個(gè)意思。所以見到deny做refuse to fulfill the request or expectation這個(gè)意思是還是眼前一亮的庄呈。

ache

ache作動(dòng)詞有三個(gè)意思：

1）to suffer a dull, sustained pain

2) to feel sympathy, or compassion. Eg: ached for his heartbroken friend

3) to yearn r long. Eg: refugees who ached for their homeland.

ache詞很小蜕煌，做名詞疼痛意用的多，做動(dòng)詞渴望自己不太常用诬留，以前只用desire, long for, yearn for, crave for, 或加副詞badly or desperately.

well

well只會(huì)做名詞用斜纪，做動(dòng)詞很少用

"It was an odd thing to see the stone-faced Ali happy, or sad, because only his slanted brown eyes glinted with a smile or welled with sorrow."

well作動(dòng)詞兩個(gè)意思：

1）to rise to the surface, ready to flow. Eg: Tears welled in my eyes.

2) to rise or surge from an inner source. Eg: Anger welled up in me.

ape

提到ape，我腦中只有一個(gè)詞意文兑，就是猿人盒刚，沒想過還可以做動(dòng)詞用。

ape: to imitate or mimic, especially in a thoughtless or inept way绿贞。

文中還有類似elbow這樣名詞作動(dòng)詞因块，用起來(lái)簡(jiǎn)單又直觀。整篇文章畫面感特別強(qiáng)也和這些小詞不無(wú)關(guān)系樟蠕。

Summary

I have heard of “The Kite Runner” long time ago, but I never read it. As I heard it was a story happened in Afghanistan, a country impressed me with wars day after day, and a place stuffed with suffering and misery. I got no interest in such a place. Yet when I opened this book, I could not stop.

I learned from the others it was a story about friendship, betray and guilt before I read it. The first three chapters I have read did not involve so much, but just an introduction of Amir’s childhood. The place where he grown up, people whom he grown with. He told us about his family, his mansion, as well as Hassan’s family and his little mud hut. Both of them lost their mothers, but the difference was Amir’s mother was hemorrhaged to death during childbirth while Hassan’s mother was eloped with a clan of traveling singers and dancers, which rendered Hassan’s life full of mock and satire, as eloping was considered for most Afghans far worse than death.

But, Ali, Hassan’s father loved his son. Ali’s life was tough, but apparently, he was tougher. He knew how to immune to those hurt and insult. He simply worked hard to raise his son and protected him as a father. Amir’s father was quite different. He was affluent and seemed capable of anything. But he didn’t know how to show his love to his boy, and when Amir grown up to be a boy that didn’t like him, he felt disappointed, and sadly, Amir can feel that. So he thought his father might doesn’t like him.

Different father brought different influences to their sons, and there their story began.

隨感

滿篇文字贮聂，我只看到一個(gè)孤獨(dú)，渴望被愛的男孩寨辩，Amir吓懈。

Amir，一個(gè)富商的獨(dú)生子靡狞，自小失恃耻警，父親是唯一的親人。在他心中父親是神一樣的存在，天之驕子（a force of nature）甘穿，總是能做到常人不敢想的事情腮恩，他崇拜他景仰他卻又怕他，渴望他的關(guān)注和愛温兼，相處時(shí)卻又小心翼翼秸滴，畏手畏腳。就是這樣一個(gè)內(nèi)向募判，又有些軟弱的小男孩給我們講了他和父親相處的三個(gè)片段荡含。

第一次是八歲時(shí)爸爸要帶他去Ghargha Lake，并讓帶上Hassan届垫。Amir撒謊說(shuō)Hassan有事情要做去不了释液。為什么？Hassan是他最好甚至唯一的朋友装处，Amir卻拒絕了他误债。因?yàn)樗释桶职知?dú)自相處了！日日生活在一起妄迁，而他之于父親卻像家里的一個(gè)物件寝蹈，存在卻并未被重視。只有獨(dú)處判族，才能讓爸爸看見他躺盛，才能讓他充分的享受和擁有自己的爸爸。另一個(gè)原因是之前他和Hassan曾和爸爸一起去河邊玩石頭擊水花游戲形帮，Hassan擊起了八個(gè)水花，而他努力到最后最多也只有五個(gè)周叮。爸爸“patted Hassen on the back, even put his arm around his shoulder”辩撑。這份親昵讓Amir嫉妒，他記得這樣清楚因?yàn)檫@親昵對(duì)他亦是奢侈仿耽。他的父親只看到了Hassan擊起的那八個(gè)水花合冀，卻看不到他也擊起了五個(gè)，他也需要鼓勵(lì)和贊揚(yáng)项贺。他看不到自己每天晚上等待著他回家一起吃晚餐君躺，看不到他在學(xué)校做游戲得第一名的驕傲和興奮，也看不到他對(duì)于自己媽媽的想念开缎，對(duì)那份缺失的愛的渴望棕叫。而當(dāng)他將自己埋于書中填補(bǔ)寂寞，尋求答案時(shí)卻又被父親鄙夷只會(huì)看書奕删，軟弱可欺俺泣。此刻，他站在父親旁邊，他卻看不到他伏钠，只看到那個(gè)仆人的孩子横漏。一個(gè)八歲的孩子此時(shí)心里是多么失望，落寞不可知熟掂，但這份失落已然開啟了他和Hassan之間友誼的裂縫缎浇，嫉妒已經(jīng)悄然而生。而在第三章最后赴肚，父親和朋友談?wù)撍麜r(shí)說(shuō)每次都是Hassan挺身而出幫他华畏，他卻不敢承認(rèn)。再見Hassan尊蚁，他的表現(xiàn)是“snapped at? him, told him to mind his own business”亡笑。

第二次相處是在書房談?wù)撛铩Ｃ鎸?duì)父親横朋，Amir “couldn’t decide whether I wanted to hug him or leap from his lap in mortal fear”. 同時(shí)又認(rèn)為和爸爸在一起是fleeting time, “It wasn’t often Baba talked to me, let alone on his lap—and I’d been a fool to wast it”仑乌。渴望又害怕琴锭，想要卻又不敢晰甚。讀到這里，著實(shí)心疼决帖。一個(gè)不到十歲的孩子厕九，在自己爸爸身邊，本該無(wú)憂無(wú)慮地回，任性撒嬌扁远，而我看到的Amir卻是滿眼的小心翼翼，是每一句話都要反復(fù)掂量唯恐說(shuō)錯(cuò)的拘束刻像。這不該是一個(gè)孩子和父親的相處模式畅买，這是成人世界里愛一個(gè)人卻又不自信對(duì)方對(duì)你的愛時(shí)才會(huì)有的踟躕和猶豫。小心翼翼這四個(gè)字對(duì)于一個(gè)孩子太過殘忍细睡，也太讓人心疼谷羞。

第三個(gè)相處是父親帶他去看比賽，當(dāng)他看到一名選手摔下馬背滿身鮮血時(shí)嚇哭了溜徙。他的父親湃缎，沒有擁抱，沒有安慰蠢壹，沒有任何舒緩他恐懼的行為嗓违，只是做一些”valiant efforts to conceal the disgusted look on his face“。Amir被嚇哭了知残，卻一路還是觀察著父親的表情靠瞎，還在注意著父親握著方向盤不時(shí)握緊松開松開握緊的手比庄。這份害怕，或許更勝于那個(gè)血腥的場(chǎng)面吧乏盐。他害怕父親討厭自己佳窑，害怕父親不原諒自己的膽小，害怕父親從此更不在意他父能。這份害怕神凑，讓人忍不住想抱一抱這個(gè)弱小的孩子，告訴他他沒有做錯(cuò)什么何吝。在偷聽父親和Khan討論自己時(shí)溉委，作者的一段描寫特別吸引我注意：”I closed my eyes, pressed my ear even harder against the door, wanting to hear, not wanting to hear.” 幾句話將一個(gè)小孩渴望了解父親眼中的自己，又害怕這個(gè)自己不完美的心理都寫了出來(lái)爱榕。

看完三章瓣喊，滿眼心疼。父親不是不愛他黔酥，他也對(duì)Khan說(shuō)很高興Amir有他這個(gè)朋友藻三，很高心他理解Amir，高興的甚至有些嫉妒跪者。但他卻不懂如何去了解自己的兒子棵帽，如何去表達(dá)對(duì)兒子的愛。作為商人渣玲，他馳騁商場(chǎng)逗概，一馬平川，但作為父親忘衍，他顯然并不合格逾苫。Hassan至少還有一個(gè)能讓他感受到愛的爸爸，而Amir卻如同孤露淑履，孤獨(dú)成長(zhǎng)著隶垮。無(wú)論Amir和Hassan之后經(jīng)歷了什么，Amir對(duì)Hassan做了什么秘噪，這位父親都難辭其咎。