8/19:【Day 2】The outcome of CET 4 has revealed,and l? was so anxious about it,even if l tried hard to calm myself down.These days,l am sleepless （失眠的）.l? feel? sleepy during the days,which is tied to（與什么有關） my routine.lt was her last time to come here,while l showed no? miss for her.

? ? ? ? My world seems to be bothered by your moment,but lt is useless to think it over.l? am? incapable of? overcoming? our? distance and? fail? to be a good partner with u.

8/20：【Day 3】Sometimes l just fall? into thinking about your moment while l am aware of being abandoned.l was deeply touched when? my partner made delicious food for me and we made dumplings together.Exausted as me, l did feel fulfilling and satisified .

? ? ? ? l saw the zoopita film? on my own,and its lines（臺詞） imprsseed me: to make the wolrd a better place and anyone can be anything,it starts with u and me.

? ? ? ? l was suprised when teacher said they may reward us with a journey ticket,no matter it was true or not,l am convinced that only if u bring out the best in you and rack your brains to do your duty, your effort will? be paid off.

? ? ? Just keep? your shortcomings in mind and make a little change step by step.

8/21：【Day 4】When he still smiled at me,l suddenly realized that l was so unfriendly to him.His academic performance is so poor,and he almost care for nothing,just smiling here.My heart felt so broken , for my effort didn't work and he actually didn't attach much importantce to his own studies. His lessons? was? over,which? is both a suprise and pity.l haven't tried my best to teach him,and his notebook of error correction? hasn't accorded with my mind.But l was relieved .

? ? ? When l gave a call back to my mum,she just shared the same things with me,and so did l. l did miss her,and really? was? eager to return to my haven（避風港）.

? ? When informed my uncle is going to go home and l can go too,l was too excited to express my feelings. But l have a crush? （迷戀）on them.

? 8/22：【Day 5】When something comes to an end, we may feel sorrowful,depressed and attached（迷戀的）? sentimental?

（傷感的sensible）and so forth.

? ? ? l have been stayed in? Haizhu? District? for almost two months,which is? nearly? all of my holiday .l was placed in （be set in以什么為背景）a totally strange environment,and the first choice l had was to face? it frankly.

? ? When computer exam was completed ,my mind was blank.l just wanted to live freely,but lack of? ? ? tough foundation and? towering talent.lt was not only an exam,but also symbolized my first year in college was over. lt left nothing to me,just some pieces of memory.

l was regret l had wasted my? time on so much meaningless affairs.l have to reflect myself,who is childish and navie.

? ? ? ? ln the past days,l have gone through many things with them. l was afraid to face the parents of students,but now l can be confident before them.l had been worked for such a long time,and l am? badly? in need? of a break.

8/23:【Day6】 l? have heard that seven is a lucky number,and l ever possessed this gift given by the god but lost .Everything has passed,but my heart is still hoping for his coming,which may never occurs. When my brother asked something about him,l just fell in silence with my broken heart.

? ? ? No matter how hard l try,l am incapable of bridging our distance and? saving our? future.Sorry, dear.l haven't never kept my dream in mind.

? ? ? Today, l was at my brother's home and finished the book:Your loneliness ,seems to fail but win.Many sentences written on the book left me a deep impression and warm my cool heart.Just like this:the most remote distance between us is that we are still here,so does our affections ,but the way to our past can't be found.（人還在适肠，情還在绢馍，找不到回去的路是我們最遙遠的距離。）

? ? ? Aside from（除了） the book,l also enjoyed a film by myself.It told a story about a girl who racked her brains to be admitted to a key university,no matter how poor was her academic performance .She just hold on her dream,and like most of us,she even wanted to give up,for she was sick of the burden carried on her,and her future looked blank.But owing to her optimistic teacher and her loving mother,she picked up her confidence again and fought for her ideal university all the time.

? ? It cames no? suprise that she made it.l? was moved to tears.Her diligence and courage stroke into my heart .She just proved herself by her efforts.It comes to me that why l can't be like her,l am just accustomed to my state of comfort.My weight has declined some,which encourages to get more exercise,and regulate my mouth and my desire for eating.

? OK,just fight for your only dream.

8/24：【Day7】 l? am the captain of my ship and.master of my fate（我就是我人生的主宰）,just stay away from those who tear you down and never accept “No”.

? ? ? ? When my best friend had a long call with me,l felt so sensible and touched .What he said just is like a boyfriend who spoke to his apple,but l am not,and so does he.

? ? Nothing accompanys u forever,and l am not in poessession of closed friends anymore .lt is u who will never leave your side and back u all the time.（強調句）

? ? When l get a look of their life,l know that it is not easy for them to make a living.Everyone has his own life, and it makes no sense if we are all the same.

? ? ? Just find a power that supports u to move forward and to? be an excellent person than u were? before. Never? put tomorrow before your today,remember:learn from today,live for today and? hope for tomorrow.

? ? To be confident and to be stronger ,never count on anyone anymore.

8/25:【Day 8】

〖realized my dream of going home〗

? ? ? ? l have been looking forward to going my hometown for a long time,though l had never made it? come true . Before my uncle's car arrived,l? just waited quietly at home with my elder brother,who is occupied with his plan of selling many women clothes .l suddenly came to realize that l was so ignorant that l had wasted much money on something meaningless? and useless .

? ? ? ? Those who are ignorant are powerless and? scary.lt? is you who should be blamed for your being cheated and wasting money casually .（無知的人最可怕丽柿，也最無力掸冤。因為你無知惨险，所以活該你受騙讹语、亂花錢。）

? ? ? l also have a look at my brother's life.He skips breakfast and orders the takeout （外賣）for lunch ,and just has? normal dinner with his gf.l? can understand his situation where he has to make a successful living to substain（維持） his family.? In? the face of? reality,everyone is forced to? be stronger ,just with the hope of providing a stress-free,trouble-free and

worry-free life for those who they love.

? ? ln the long car trip,my mind was full of him.l kept asking myself and tried to comfort myself.Dear,l did what l? wanted to do,and so you owned me? one .We have made promise to go home together, which was one of my wishes .l still believe that l love u and so do u,even though we are apart from each other.Orange, just take good care of yourself .

Although you are absent in my life, l am able to live an organized life,instead of being in a messy.（你不在勇吊，我的生活也會井然有序而不是亂成一片）

? l? fell in sleep with soft music? and kept eating nothing in car.l got home in the midnight......So exausted and tired ......

8/26:【Day 9】〖three things l should place? importance on.〗（學費能岩，父母，投資）

1.The difficulty of completing my tuition fees（學費）.

l was at a loss when my mother gave me 3,000 yuan to deposit into my bank account.l was suprised and touched ,for my parents score my education highly.My parents,both? are farmers,who succeeded in supporting? financially? three children to go to university? .lt reminds me how tough they are,and how appreciative should l be .l have to strike it to my heart that l must put my studies into the first place,desert what l used to be and valve what l have.（學習第一位萧福，拋棄舊我，珍惜我擁有的）

2.So lean is she,so heavy burden he is carried .

（瘦小的身軀辈赋，沉重的負擔）

When l saw his or her shadows of their image,it occurred to me that they have been so industrious and devoted to us.Some white hair appears on her head,which seems to informe me of her age and her workload.She just carried what was heavier than her,which was beyond of my ability.

3.Give some thoughts to my future,rather than live a mindless? ? and listless? life.l am going to graduate after three years,and? l have to? have something that symbolizes me.Living in a so fierce society, how to? make myself? irreplaceable is a matter that should be thought it over.

? l just don't want to give in before reality.

8/27：【Day 10】〖l just hold the belief that l? will be on? my? own for later future .〗

? What impressed me most was that my uncle gave me some money,and some mooncakes were bought? .? Uncle? has made it a habit to give some money to my mother,which reminds me that if u are rich,in possession of much money,u are supposed to share some with your family.Only when u are a boss,can u be so liberal.（慷慨大方）

? ? l? went to the place where l finished my high school? with my friend,who has been stayed at home for the whole holiday.She has changed a new haircut,and it looks more attractive.We chatted about everything,and l know what she concerned most is her bf,so? l? asked her.But she may never know what l concern most.We just hung out in the street,where l spent most of my free time with someone.And we saw many beautiful clothes and shoes,but l showed no intention of buying them.Since l got to know about how cheap they are,l just keep calm,repeating to tell myself not to buy them anymore.The street,was full of my past footprints, but l felt so strange that? l couldn't? recognize which road is right for our destination.

? ? When KFC came into my sight,l remembered someone ever said to me he would bring me to KFC? when he had a lot of fortune.Now, everything has changed. We have new happiness,and? sorrow also? will? be? updated.Just? let it? go.

? l met? with two of my classmates,and then went home? with my sister.On our way home,it rained heavily? and l fell into sleep? .There? were many familiar things around me ,such as accent,care and mutual understanding.

? ? ? The? pace of rural life makes relaxed...

8/28:【Day 11】〖The hardship of my grandparents 〗

l hit my grandparents' house with my mom? today.There? are a? few people still living in the small town,leaving it an empty village.

? l? still? remember? when? l was going to go to college,my grandparents gave me 500,which is really meaningful for me .They have been? working? so? hard? for? most? of? their life ,and they also place much importance on? our education.They are? experienced,industrious and open-minded.

? My mother chatted much with her mother,and l just listened to what? they said quietly.It is thought to be a happiness too.We stayed four hours or so before we left.....

8/29：【Day 12】〖The memory of my high school's studies〗

? ? My young sister,continues her studies by retrying? once more again .? l tried to teach her what l still understand,but she seems? show no interest in it.She? did badly in exercise,which made me feel desperate .Despite her bad performance,she encouraged? herself? to be positive and? try one more again.She? showed her regret ,adding that? why l choose? to return to school? again.Maybe,what? she is going through is my past.l? just taught her some simple grammer ,while? she complained a lot and her attitude isn't very well.

? ? These days,electricity? was cut off in my hometown.lt gets dark easily and earlier in rural life.When it is nine'o clock, everything is slient,and? falling into? deep sleep.l? am? so attached? to? this environment which is far away from noise? and complication? in big cities .

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8/30:〖Day 13〗【What? should? l do before my birthday】

l have been looking forward to my birthday for a long time.lt is not only a birthday that symbolizes my growth ,but also is a promise made by him.Something memorable? was found ,which reminded me of my middle school? when l was a little girl and he a little? boy.

? We have accompanied each other for seven years .And we know each other well, but? ultimately we broke up.

? ? My heart was broken, not knowing? what? to do except from being silent. But? l really care about it, and want to save it,rather than turn a blind eye to my inner voice.So l took photos of our past,to share it in my moment .

? ? l didn't know what result l would get, so l told myself l may get the same? result.Actually,l don't know what result should be ideal .My mind was full of him.......

8/31:〖Day 14〗【Welcome for your coming back】

? Dear,l was so glad that we ultimately broke the ice of silence ,and l was so eager to hear from u.

We chatted much,and? got something about? mutual life.l was too excited to calm down.

? U know,l thought it impossible for us to get together again,though l still miss u.l was also sorry that l hadn't found u on your birthday .

? We have missed a lot,So l have to learn to valve u ,and everything around me.lt is u who give me the confidence to try again and the courage to move on? and the belief to make a change.Thank you for your coming .

? l will have a blueprint of our future and just be more confident in my life because l know those who lack confidence are bound to be defeated by reality.And l won't because of your support.

? It seems that our future looks bright and l hope so.l will change myself and make up my mind to get a noticeable weight loss.

9/1：〖Day 15 and day 1〗【The last day ,? the first day at my 20 birthday】

? Maybe? l have the courage to change,to believe and to embrace a bright future.l shouldn't indulge myself in eating too much junk food,like a foodie.lt looks like l broke my promise made by myself.

? lt may take me some times to adapt to his coming.We are less likely to be apart from each other again,but l cannot count on him too much ,for we should own our space.After all,our priority is to grow up instead of being in love.

? lt comes little suprise that many people succeed in weight loss because they keep a balance between diet and sports .As for me,the relationship between both isn't very well.l? cannot? handle it? on? purpose,which makes me far away from my only dream.

? OK,take it easy,just be yourself.

? Try one more time,and? make up your mind and if u persevere in regulating your diet,u will? be successful in weight loss.?

9/2:〖Day 16 and day 2〗【The day of leaving and beginning】l was almost sleepless last night, just wandering in the ocean of my mind.When it was time for me to leave for Guangzhou,l was so sensible that l forgot the road to where l desire to go .My parents and l got up early to catch the bus.ln fact,it is useless to arrive there in a precious time because there were people who missed the right time .And the significance of getting ahead of time left me a deep impression.l also reminded myself that the road to my school was far away from home,so l must make every? return meaningful.? Say goodbye? to u, to my parents ,and to my hometown.l will strive for a better life ,and will come back with a new appearance.

? During my trip journey, l just listened to English songs,which confused me a lot .But it is another form of studying English .l cannot understand well what the Singers sing but it is another language to convey my feelings .

? A sentence stroke into my heart:those who more disciplined about themselves,are more confident and ambitious.l quietly back this point,for if u are more organized ,u are more likely to get to know what priority is in your whole life. lt seems l have a tendency to count on him, and l don't want to live for his care and love.

Whatever, we should be more mature instead of indulging ourselves in love.

? l have set a goal for myself.l have to be? on a diet and pick up self-control（學會自律）,which is consistent with（與……一致） my ambition. Just try to eat less and do sports more ,maybe l will be more slim.

9/3：〖Day 17 and day 3〗【Just to be what u want to be】

Most of time,we always forget what we have and long for something that is remote from us.When u have a glimpse of other's? misfortune,u may truly realize how luckily u are!So cherish what u have and try to pursue what u want rather than wander in your own mind.（比你不幸的人還堅強的生活鲫忍，那你呢）

? ? When l heard of my brother's situation where he is in dilemma,l was afraid that he couldn't support his family very well.Now,l know when my brothers are not involved with love,so they don't have to spend their time in it,which makes them concerned about my studies.（There is no? need? for them to waste some time in love.）l always complain about the absence of my sister,but l am truly lucky to have three brothers.They all care about me in? their? ways to provide me a inclusive,stress-free,hassle-free,and trouble-free environment.l should be appreciative of what they did for me,and learn to be more mature and independent..（哥哥們生活工作也不容易，所以你要獨立一點點）

? lt came as a great surprise that my roommates bought a cake for me.l had never thought about it? because l thought they may neglect it while they? didn't.We will together for four years ,during which we may treat each other like our family.So just love them and be happy with them.Be yourself too.

? ? The moment when l was desperate flashed my mind ,for l scared if he abandon me again.l called him? immediately? when l went out? of? dormitory.lt came little suprise that he was sleeping but l still bothered him .He just fell into sleep and? knew nothing about what l said.

9/4：〖Day 18 and day 4〗【set a goal and then strive for it】

? The last thing l should do is to take up his time too much and that of mime.lt seems that l tend to rely on him.lt takes me sometime to get accustomed to his coming.

? l got up late today.And l set some goal,among which l put? weight loss in the first place.l? desire to get slim and then l can turn up in a? totally? new? appearance.l don't want to meet u in what l look like now.lf l haven't changed myself completely, it won't be a gift for your leaving.Sometimes,l want to ........

? Today,l met my brother.And l told him about my feelings and told him not to worry about me.My second brother gave me a call? when l was on my way .He just told me not to ask brothers for money except for him.

? Brother,l want to tell u that l won't ask u for money ,either.l will stand on my feet ,and l will earn my living expense.So,it is of great importance for me to grasp time ,to invest myself.

? ? Everytime? when l played with my roommates,it may look like l am indulged.Therefore,l? should learn to accept “No”.

9/5:〖Day 19 and day5〗【The end of freshman,the start of sophomore】

? ? It is the first day when we all become sophomore,which means that we are not unfamiliar with our college anymore .There are many new courses in this term,including four optional classes and six compulsory courses（required? courses）.During the first lesson,many teachers may instruct us how to spend the rest of our campus lives .

? ? l also inform myself that under no circumstance can l skip classes.lt can't be a solution through the whole campus studies if l persevere in a wrong way.

? Just? stick with competing with yourself? and never put limitations on your potential.Put studies first before anything else? and be confident.

9/6：〖Day 20 and day 6〗【The change 】

? l? have decided to be attentive in class and try to sit in front rows instead of the last rows.（上課專心钥屈，爭坐前排）

? Every new subject with a totally strange teacher comes as little suprise.What impressed me most is the way how teachers introduced themselves and subject involved in .When l met English teacher again,l was so glad.But when asked about result of CET-4,l kept silent .Although l have passed the test,l felt little happiness .Should l complain about the outcome?l? hadn't prepared? it? well? and did it badly ,maybe l was blessed with God.

? During English class,l can grasp many new words easily,which makes absorbed in his class.When it comes to my past holiday, l may summarize it using following words:fruitful,emotionally rewarding? ,demanding,changing and so on.

lt taught me how to be kind to children and how to be considerate and contributing.There are many disadvantaged and economically deprived people who are living a impoverished lives.So try to make change in campus and try for more.

? ? My Mom? called me but l didn't answer it right now.l knew it was cruel to tell her not to call me if she wanted but it may affect my studies.She places much importance on my academic performance than me,which makes me guilty and shamed .So l won't play mobile phone in class if unnecessary.

? These days,l don't go to jogging anymore.So l picked it up and ran four laps around our school.l was so slowly but l was delighted.Exausted as l was,my heart was filled with a sense of achievement.l wanted to give up in the first lap,while l told myself to carry on .To? make weight loss ,is one of my dream.l don't? want? to leave it behind.

? ? So,make it a rule that go jogging in the morning and afternoon ,and try to eat less and do more sports.（少吃多運動）

? ? 9/7：〖Day21 and day7〗? l got up in a early time to go jogging.Sleepy as l was,l just? ran slowly .l met with those who cleaned our campus,and l felt warm.There? were many sceneries in the morning,and l took a photo to memorize today.One year? has passed,l was a freshman last year but now turn into a sophomore.When walking in front of many of them,l was scary? but told myself to be

self-assured.

? l? was exausted while l finished my running,it gave me a sense of achievement and it is pressing（迫切的）? for me to succeed in weight loss.

? Last year? of today ,l turned into a freshman .My brother accompanied me? but left myself here.The last thing l should do is to miss them when they are not in my side.

? ? ? 9/8：【The? ability of thinking independently】

Many new courses has been introduced,and the significance of thinking independently is placed much emphasis.What Kejian said? came into the point directly and l found myself ignorant.This semester,many optional courses is tied to law,which makes me feel my defect in law.

? ? ? Our motto is:thinking completes thought,which provides access to success（思考成就思想悟民，思想成全夢想）

? ? ? ? l am busy with my studies and attentive in class,for l want to be a totally different myself and? want to change.? The only dream is? something that keeps me? motivated. l valve what l have.

? There are many socially? disadvantaged and economic impoverished people? who? still strive for a better life.There is no reason for me not to promote myself.l am sleep-deprived（缺覺的）.Undoubtedly,l? have to be self-disciplined? to be the queen of my Kingdom.

? ? It is useless for me to tell them about my situation where? they cannot understand it.So just be yourself? and? take a leap of faith,to change,to believe ,to embrace and to succeed one day.

9/9：【The first day of my team reunion】

（大二：馬隊第一次訓練）

You forgave me,treating me like my boyfriend.l didn't know how to convey my feelings about u ,who both play the role of soulmate and brother.Even if l was late,leaving u wait for me about an hour ,u still complained about nothing.

l? am so appreciative of? what u give me.l know how hard a life u are living ,and understand u care me so much.（謝謝你一直都在）

? Today,my team got united.The hardness,the sweat,the tears, are filled with my heart.l was

? ? not in a good condition ,and l wanted to give up myself ,but l didn't.The Marathon,is physically? and mentally demanding and challenging for me,but it is also emotionally rewarding.There are many reasons why u gave up ,while there is only reason why u still carry on it.The passion for running has been fade out, and why l am persistent in it is out of love .

We? were required to finish half an hour of jogging.In the course of running,l relentlessly told myself that l have to move on.If l stopped my step,it was a symbol of giving up,which was the last thing l should do.The only reason why l keep? ?

motivated on running is just because when l run in my speed ,it can give me a sense of blank（空白感）.

9/10:【The suprise of being a teacher】

Last night,l came to the place where l stayed almost two months .l got familiar with everything here ,and l have a crush on it.But my routine would? ? completely change? if l take it for granted that it is home to my soul.

? ? l dreamt a dream about my ex-bf,which can be called the first lover.But it was in a mess in my mind.l don't know how will l make up my mind if he comes back to my side.Maybe? l will decline.l am less likely to hurt him again and it is unwise for him to start with me again.We all have been changed ,and we are not who we? used to be.There are many feelings that? l? want? to? share? with u,but we get less contact.Will? we? break up again? l don't know what the future holds .l just want? to be a financially and mentally independent? person,who? is? sensible,positive and? optimistic towards life.

When l? was? rewarded? with a? ? trip? ticket and mooncakes,my heart was filled with? appreciation? and strong love.? To? be honest, l? wanted? to? change? my job? but now won't.

? ? If u? are enough excellent,u will? have a performance? no? matter? where u are.It is truly important for me to be ture for myself.

9/11：【The? same problem we encountered again】

? l? was? so? moved? when? we? got? together again? and? we continued? to? do our work.l? was? sleepless when u promised u would? call? me? later? but u? didn't.Maybe? we all? get accustomed to? what we used to be.But when u? turned a blind eye to me,l was extremely broken ,with my tears slipping down.

? U? said u had no idea and just refused? to? reply me? ,which made? me? feel? worthless in your world.We have many different views about love,since we are seperate love,why we? don't? bridge the distance between? us? l was badly hurt by my behavior,not knowing? how? to? address such problem about affections.

9/12：【? lt? seems? l was? busy? with my studies】l? am? looking forward to the coming of national days,which? provides the opportunity for both of us to have a gathering.

9/13:【The? importance of thinking independently】

? lt is the ability to have your own thinking that makes? u? distinguished? from others.l? am? trying? for a better life.

9/14:【The problem u encounter is that u think too much 】

U are less likely to contact with me when u are free,which makes me sense u don't care about me at all.Feeling? exausted and fatigued, the only choice l make is to jog,to run.The belief that just go to jog when u want to cry,letting sweat and tears evaporate is firmly supported? by me.lt is unwise for me to count on u too much,and it is pressing for me to bridge the distance between us.My mind ,was full of u .（縮小距離）

9/15：【A sense of well-being】

My mind was wandering last night,contributing to my sleeplessness.l got up so early in the morning with the purpose of catching a bus feeling? sleepy. There were many people rushing to buy a ticket and l was angry for my brother's? being late.My? anger? was softened? when we finally? began? our trip to Dongguan.

? ? Everyone was drawn to her coming, and it was likely that they all favored? her. When we chatted about our family and later future,l found myself worthless,losing my position .

9/16：【My trip was over】

l was feeling unwell （不好）when? ? taking subway.l was deeply touched when my Dear uncle handed me 100. Looking back on mystudies of journey ,they? have been supported? us? to? continue our studies.In fact,many of? them? lay much emphasis on? studies,thinking it is of? great? significance for us to? be a well-rounded? person.

9/17:【keep a balance beween? studies and sports】

lt seems that l am occupied with many affairs ,but l can't get the point of? my life.When a day was over,l felt many things haven't? been done,for l just? felt sleepy .......

? ? With? a? strong desire to? achieve my goal of 600,l? am? clearly? to? put priorities? in the first place.l? went through loss of u,so l am extremely confident about my future as? long? as? l? am? motivated.

9/18：【The absence of jogging】

l found less passions? to? write my dailys,just having no idea to? describe my life.? l? am? looking? forward to? the? coming of? next? holidays,while afraid of? facing the? agnoy of? separation（分離的痛苦）.

? l? am? far? away from my? dream,which is? hidden by? myself.

? l? was? beat（累的）.l? am? 20,but? it? seems that l? am? not? accountable? for? my life.

9/19:Occasionally,? l found less desire to share what happened to me with u.You can't be? in my shoes to? go? through? what l? experienced.

? Marathon,is? able to make u? strong both in body and? soul.

l? am? living on? a? tight budget（過得艱辛）泣刹，counting? the? days of my? holiday.When thinking of his? arrival,my heart? is delighted .Afraid of the moment when we are away from each other,l force myself to strive for a? bright tomorrow.

9/20：There is a close link between my mood with u.We all? take it for granted that what we own now is reasonable without deep thinking.

l found my life in? a? mess,with no direction at all.如果我還有夢想弱恒，我為什么不去努力？

9/21：l? just? want to challenge myself,so l told teacher about my inner voice.To? be? economically? independent,l have? to struggle for? a? irreplaceable myself.

? l? tasted the happiness of giving others a hand.lt was? really? touched when u did something sincerely by your heart,which may be paid off.

You? are? expected to accompany me? more time,if? u don't,the best choice for us is to? get apart? again.

9/22：The best promise is that u will be my side for the rest of your life.lt is the last thing that we take it for granted that we count on each other all the time.There is a link between? my feelings and your response.But l learn how to be wiser when we are in different places.l am so longing for your arrival,appreciative of your coming back again.

9/23：最不該放縱的是自己田晚。身體越不舒服竭业，越應該注意飲食智润。

9/24：l am? not sick of my part-time job as l expected,just savoring the moment when l am the guide of them.Maybe, there still something l can't leave behind.（因為愛，所以堅持）

When u gave me a voice, my heart was touched. l? am? counting days for your coming,and l? will? be? more? confident .（你的回來未辆，是我最大的自信）

9/25：l failed to pass the exam,doing badly in my studies as well.（兼職沒過窟绷，差一分領獎學金）.

My mood, was? in? a? low spirit,feeling myself ignorant.

還是好好復習六級吧。

9/26：頭很痛咐柜，眼睛很累兼蜈。

9/27：My? mind? fell? into a blank state,not aware of what happened outside.Beat as l am, l didn't? ? complete? my routine? .My? dear? brother? transfered? 1000? to me? ,which? warns me to be? ? ? ? economically? ? independent.

? ? ? ? U? are? expected? to strive? for? your? own future,and? to? slience your? uncertain? ideas.雖然課很無聊攘残，可是我不能逃。畢竟为狸，他們是老師歼郭。自己已經不是重點大學的學生，真的應該更努力辐棒，努力活出自己的模樣病曾，而不是墮落。

9/28:Forthcoming national holidays,are? both a? happiness? and? challenge? to? me.It? took? me? a? few? months? to? accustom myself to your absence ,which? l? live on my own.But? your comingback? again boosts my? confidence,increase a? sense of? well-being.

（可能涉瘾，需要你靠過來知态，而不是我再倒過去）

l? have a? deepimpression of? your? leaving,and? l? was? truly hurt? when u just kept silent to me.Please, do? not? leave me? again? and? do? not? hurt me? again,l? can't? stand? it.

9/29：They all? skipped class,except me.? Many things should be? lasted ,to make it a rule,but? l? gave up half of my way.l? am? not? a? good student, who? keep her? dream? and? voice in? secret,being afraid of? presenting? her own? standpoint.l? am? not qualified? for? those? who are? rewarded? by our country. （從頭到尾，我都不是一個好學生）l? am? incapable of looking? down? on? others,since? everyone is equal.（沒有資格嘲笑他人立叛，應該嘲笑的是自己）

9/30：The? first month during my 20,has? totally passed.Many? goals set by me haven't accomplished,except one:never skip class.（從不逃課）.Recently,l? have been sleep-less,and l? have a bad sleep at? noon.My mind was in a blank......

? ? There? are? many? things waiting for? me to? complete .What l? desire? has? come,but l? feel more loss than? happiness .（我有點不知所措负敏，因為既期待又害怕。和你一起奔向天涯秘蛇，不管窮途其做，不管末路。）

10/1：When we met again,my holiday began.My heart was? beating when l? saw u at the first sight.l found myself crushed on u.（你來赁还，我接妖泄。只是不應該讓你穿越人山人海過來）

10/2：《完整的一天》

看著你在廚房忙碌的身影，心里好踏實艘策。

喝你煮的湯蹈胡，感覺好幸福。

跟你一起說說笑笑朋蔫，我知道這樣的時刻并不多罚渐。

所以，不想提離別驯妄。

When u are my side荷并，others'greetings? seem to be a bother for me.l was? less? patient with my Mom when referring to my track .l know she was badly hurt ,feeling worthless to her sons marriage .l? felt her? tears slipping down her face ,and? l was? also? unable to do anything to promote their? affairs.l? just comforted her? that? it? was none of? your business anymore .U? just? completed your task and for the rest of their lives ,it should be? their? choices.The moment u said u were helpless and? worthless ,l? truly understood your worry? and fear ,which? are useless? .Having? phoning? with? u,my? mood? was? in a? low spirit .U? made me? feel more than? what? u said to me.It is? time to take? accountability? for? myself .The society? is fierce? and? cruel? .（她說她對自己子女的婚姻什么也做不了的時候，我知道她的心會是多難受青扔。擺在面前的無能為力源织，心急如焚的迫切，無奈兩者沒有一個平衡點微猖。我知道谈息，我也是該長大了。）

10/3：l was? accustomed to your exitence.l was? less? confident when? facing u.Sorry......my inner mind fell? into a deep frustration.

10/4:When we got? together,joy was? filled with? my? whole heart.So caring was u ,and excellent ,that l was adorable for u .（相聚匆匆凛剥，簡單平淡就是幸福黎茎。有你的陪伴，再長的路也不怕当悔。只是傅瞻，害怕離別的車站把所有的回憶都停留在昨天踢代。）

10/5：When shopping with u,u prefer to choose better objects at an unaffordable price but l declined. At present,we all count on? our brothers to support us,and occasionally we can't meet our daily needs .It is unwise for us to waste too much money on daily life.When we get economically independent, we are? able to buy what we desire.

? ? ? My tears slipped down when l saw your departure.（你的別離，是我眼淚的降臨嗅骄。我不舍胳挎，不忍你離去。與你一起的點滴溺森，已經成為記憶的畫面慕爬。那一刻，我痛恨自己不能跟你走屏积。）

10/6：You are always? considerate for me,and u prepared breakfast for me.l got many from u , u never complained? about it.（謝謝你--哥医窿。）

? l? get? accustomed to what we were ,but l need to move on my routine.（該堅持，該好好做人了炊林。等我有錢姥卢，瘦下來，我就過去找你渣聚。）

10/7：【新的月份独榴，新的開始】

Just be? yourself? and? to? pursue what u desire.

And u have a dream .U abandon it,hurt it,forget it ,but still remember it .Just try? again ,one more time.Lay emphasis on what u are fond? of ,and never? give up and give in.（其實教育者的素質遠比教給小孩子的知識要重要得多。）

10/8：【Just be myself】

U are? more likely to be regret on what u didn't do than the things u did do.Either day runs u,or u run day.（要么日子掌控你奕枝，要么你掌控日子棺榔。）

10/9：【To act in a way u? desire,not to pretend ,just? be what u savor】

If? u? don't put? effort into what u really enjoy,it can't be? called “l(fā)ove”.If? u take no action to what u want to be,it? just a remote dream.

? ? U? have? to? try? so? hard,to? live as? u? expect.（謝謝你一直都在，謝謝你隘道≈⑿可是，我想要更努力谭梗，不想要你遷就這樣的我当船。）

10/10：It is so hard for me to get a reduced weight.My mind is struggling when faced with varied diet.l? may choose something l? can? afford to make ends meet.

? When U? finish your priority ,u get a sense of? accomplishment .Never? get? stuck in daily life and? weighted? down accountabilites .（豆點滴的汗水滴落在塑膠跑道上，是我對肥胖的不妥協(xié)默辨。）

10/11：【需要多努力，才能讓自己的內心強大起來】

當她們可以靠顏值苍息，靠智商行走于江湖的時候缩幸，你靠的是什么？

你有夢想竞思，有事做表谊，有人愛，已經足夠幸福了盖喷”欤可是你的心靈卻是太弱小，不足夠強大课梳。

? ? 你知道的距辆，你會做到的余佃。

? 接下來，年前瘦10斤跨算，不是夢想爆土。三分運動，七分飲食诸蚕。

? U? have your own dream,which? distinguishes U from others.U? must be more excellent,more persistent? than u imaged.? Your? dream already can? be? achieved, if? you put? your? whole? heart into it.? ? So? familiar with? everything around me that? l? tend? to? take? a? blind eye to them? without hesitation.? l? come? to? understand there? is? something u must keep it? to? yourself,without? sharing? with? anyone .

? ? Today, my closed friend received? a suprising birthday party .She is the one l desire to play with and to mature into a contributing,aspiring,enterprising person.（劍霞步势，謝謝你。希望我們友誼長存背犯。）

10/12：【把握重心? 做好自己】

When l wake up? in the morning, my mind comes to in? a mess,which l am trying to change.

? When we acknowledge our defects frankly,it is the first step for us to transform ourselves completely.? When l put you before anything else,l am afraid that one day u would leave me nothing but dismay and misery.

? U are my boy friend now, but l am less? dependent on u ,since l know u? are? always excellent ,and? it is natural that l am expected to be the one like u .l? miss u a little.

? （我只想做你的小太陽坏瘩，給你溫暖和快樂。我可以任性漠魏，但我選擇更多的是理解和寬容倔矾。我知道，我需要好好珍惜你蛉幸。我不知道能陪你多久破讨，路有點長，那就讓時間來回答吧奕纫。）

? （我是一個沒頭沒腦的人提陶，缺點太多。真的需要冷靜冷靜匹层，給自己一個空間隙笆。沉淀身心，去浮躁升筏，朝自己的方向去努力撑柔。）

10/13：【該怎么回憶? 該怎么努力】

l found myself lest confident when faced with unexpected situation and less competent .

My English level is so poor while l always omit it.

And l made up my mind to get a reduced weight.If l have been working so hard,why l still feel less confident on? myself?? l was so fragile that? even cannot stand any storm.

? （太多時候，想要改變自己卻麻木于現(xiàn)實您访。給你自由铅忿，給你空間，你說說：這些年你讓自己活出了什么模樣灵汪？）

? A negative mindset is just like something poisonous ,which may kill all your aspiring ambitions and hinder your step to go forward.

U can't give in on what may conquer u ,but to combat them.

10/14:【The same place with different accompany presents? various views. 】

At the cost of my valuable time,l choose to hang out with my roommates ,which may seem like to be mistaken.We hold different views on something,which shows our difference and background. They cannot imagine how tight a life l am living ,and they just urge me to sing for fun,but l declined. To be a principled,highly motivated,enterprising,aspiring and giving person is my aim.

? All of u have no need to worry about your expenditures because your parents support u while l am not. （走跟你走過的路檀训，看過的風景，整個心窩都是你享言。就算是坐公交峻凫，跟你在一起也是最大的幸福。因為遙遠和稀少览露，所以凸現(xiàn)珍貴荧琼。如果有一天，我沉沉地睡過去了，請不要叫醒我命锄。）

10/15：【 越裝佯 堰乔、吹噓? 越欠缺】

考驗一個人真正愛學習的，不是看其在忙碌的時候做了什么累舷，而是在其個人自由的時候做了什么浩考。

? My body was extremely exhausted and frazzled. l show no interest in my studies. l kept asking myself what my? life is holding for? Step by step ,to make a difference to my own life.

l found nothing can be shown before them.One year has? passed,l still? remain? what l? used to be .（同鄉(xiāng)會迎新，讓我發(fā)現(xiàn)自己的確沒有什么好炫耀的被盈。有的時候析孽，想太多。想要給你舞臺只怎，你卻沒有什么拿的出手的袜瞬。）

10/16：【只是很安靜】

? 不想說太多，只是想默默努力身堡。

10/17：【言語無力】

行動起來邓尤。投到自己熱愛的事情去。

10/18：最怕自己消極的情緒在泛濫贴谎。

10/19：【To fight? for my only dream】

A? campus life? without romantic? relationship is imperfect.Strike? a? balance? between? studies and? sports.How to? make? good? use? of? your free? time is? tied? to? your? ambition,what you? really? desire in your inner mind.To? be?

self-assured? provides? u? a? feelings? of? identity.

10/20：【默許】

? ? 發(fā)現(xiàn)自己的不足汞扎，就努力。

10/21：【距離面前的無力感】

對不起擅这，我陪不了你澈魄。希望你好好照顧自己。

10/22：【兼職的路上】

? ? ? ? 感覺委屈仲翎，只是想回家吃一頓飯痹扇。

10/23：【找回自己的夢想】

? ? ? ? 堅持的東西太多，而最后把自己減肥的夢想都扔了溯香。心在長途汽車上奔波鲫构，不知道歸屬地在何處。

? ? 如果我還沒有找到路玫坛，就讓我再迷茫一會结笨；

? ? 如果我找到了路，就讓我馬不停蹄地往前沖湿镀。

想太多炕吸，終究是想太多。

? 經濟獨立? 思想獨立? 感情獨立?

做不到智商與美貌并存肠骆，也要嘗試著努力。長這么大了塞耕，總有一些自己實現(xiàn)的事情蚀腿。鼓勵自己，繼續(xù)努力。

To? be? economically and? emotionally and? mentally? independent.

10/24:【不愿日子過得太平凡】

l? am? reluctant to? comprise if? my day seems too? to be a commonplace.People? tend to? look? back? on? their? past,and? omit? what they truly own .

? ? l? was extremely? fatigued.Marathon is both physically and? mentally? demanding and? challenging? for me,but? emotionally? rewarding.

l? carve? for? a? reduced? weight,but? l? don't? take? any? practical? actions.（真心想要瘦下來莉钙，我一定會瘦下來＠唷）

10/25：【To? be what u want to? be】

Many? people view seperate love as unsuccessful relationship,? while l? just slience down those voices .lt is? essential to have faith in? each other,and we? have to? endure some sufferings before we get together finally.l? won't? give? up? on? u? with? the hope of? u .（千萬人看不好異地，我只是努力讓這些聲音消失磁玉。）

10/26：《try for a whole? new? life》

l? was? hurt when? l? saw? my shadow from her,and? l? was crushed in the deep heart.l? want? to? cry? over your? shoulders? but? u? are? absent.U? can't comfort me? instantly ,so? u can't be? my? very accompany,but? l tend? to? rely? on u,accustomed? to your exitence.Afraid? of? my? ignorance,l? must? free myself to? strive for a better life.（等我沒什么錢了的時候停忿，我終于也知道我是得多努力去賺錢去養(yǎng)活自己。不只是現(xiàn)在蚊伞，還有未來∠福現(xiàn)在還年輕，為什么要以二十歲的年紀时迫，過著六十歲的生活呢颅停？還年輕，還有夢掠拳，做自己喜歡的事情就好癞揉。）

10/27～28：? 沒有記憶的昨天，該如何回憶溺欧？

10/29：昨晚母親的一句話喊熟，讓我印象深刻。其實姐刁，越簡單的話芥牌，越是有道理。對不起龙填，媽媽胳泉，我真的覺得自己沒有什么用處。

? 覺得岩遗，自己需要有一個夢想去引導自己扇商，去努力，去奮不顧身宿礁。做自己喜歡的事情吧案铺。? 親愛的自己，最后兩個月梆靖，加油吧控汉。

10/30-11/1：【越是習慣，也越容易忽略】

沒有過多的交流和相處返吻，讓我感覺到不安全姑子。也許，需要一個信念去堅守测僵。的確街佑，相愛容易谢翎，相守難。我也覺得挺累的沐旨，可是每每跟他聊天覺得時間過得很快很快森逮。他最近有點忙，而我只能表示寬容和理解磁携。原來褒侧，在新的一段感情里面，我已經不會那么任性了谊迄。這是所謂的成長吧闷供。

做自己喜歡的事情，最后奮戰(zhàn)兩個月鳞上。

【減肥成功这吻、過六級、練習口語】最后的目標篙议，最后的掙扎了唾糯。

11/2:【To? strive for a balance between? my? part-time job and? my hobby,but? l failed. 】

l? was so anxious and desired to go outside to go through more,but? l? had? no choice but to follow my? routine.Occasionally,l? am? tired of what l did .

? ? When l? accompanied? them and? took? myself? for? their? role model, l? found myself ignorant and? youthful.l just? wanted? to? grow again with? all? of? u ,and? with? the? hope? that? u will? stay here? some day just? like us.

（去不了中馬的后勤，我的心有點難受鬼贱。我掙扎移怯，我難受，可是我放不下我的學生这难，也不甘愿老師如此麻煩舟误。對不起，對你的愛并不完美姻乓。）

11/3：【The unexpected expresses and the? wellbeing u gave me】

l? was? so? sorry that? these days,l? was? wondering? whether we? should stop and? leave us? a? space.When l? received your express one? by? one,my heart was? filled? with? delight and? move.l? was? so? appreciative of? what? u? did? for? me.Thank you? for your eight-year companion.

l? learn how to pursue what l? am eager for.

（謝謝你始終如一的陪伴嵌溢，謝謝你從來沒有改變過的守候。）

Currently,l? have cleared? my? aim ,and? begin? to? move? forward? step? by? step.

（想過一種有目標蹋岩，有夢想的生活赖草。）

11/4：【l desire? on? your? side】

When? we? talked? to? each? other,? time? seemed? to? slip away? faster.對不起，我會好好相信你剪个，跟你一起走下去的秧骑。我也會努力克服“異地”這個關系，努力地瘦下去扣囊。謝謝你相信我乎折，余生請多多指教。

11/5：【a sense? of pride】

When? l dress myself up, l was joyous and it? came? to? me that? what l? did? now? made? me looks more? attractive and mature.l? was? appreciative? of? whom? l? met? .Despite? some hardship l? went? through,it? is? truly worthwhile to? hold? on? to it.The? more u give,the? more? u? will? receive.?

? When u? are upset,the awesome way to console U is to? chat more with u and get U distracted from your sorrow.lf we? were brave enough to speak our thoughts at? that? time,what? result? we may? get? currently? There? is nothing to? regret ,just go? ahead? and? move forward,to? change we? can .（如果年少的我們足夠勇敢侵歇，現(xiàn)在的我們會不會就不一樣骂澄？可是沒有如果，我們能夠做的就是繼續(xù)前行惕虑。）

11/6：【The? wellbeing? of running】

lt? has? been a? long time? since l put? running? aside.When l picked it? up? again,l? felt? a? sense of? accomplishment .l? will? try? hard,and? endeavor? to? make? progress .l? just? desire? to be? serious about? everything in? my? life.（我只是想認真地生活）

11/7：想堅持早起坟冲，堅持練習口語士修。

11/8：原來自己的發(fā)音，是那么的不標準樱衷。

l? also? wanted? to? give up ,but if? l? do? so ,it? means that l? lost? my? dream forever.Today,we? had a 拔河 contest.Having used up? my? strength,l? was? extremely beat（精疲力盡的）.When we? finished our match,we? united again. When u accomplished? something? exceptional with? your fellow,U would? feel? the? wellbeing .

Despite? what l? experienced,l chose to? go? for my? team. It is ture that u? give up? something for? various reasons but? adhere? to? it? for? just one simple? reason.（有很多放棄的理由，堅持的理由只有一個酒唉。）

When l show u my? attractive photo,what u saw isn't beauty but my whole? figure shape. A? little? frustration? flashed? my? mind ,but? l? came to? realize? that what matters to? u isn't my? Outlook? but? my? health.（真正關心你的人矩桂，看見的不是你外表的光環(huán)，而是你光環(huán)背后的辛酸痪伦。）

? If? l? don't look? back? over my? past,l? would? never? realize that how? much l? adored? u? when? l was? young.Many? things have been? considerably changed ,while u? remain .l? can't? ask? for? more from? u,without? paying? u? nothing.

U? trust me,and? so? do? l.

11/9：【We won】

愿日子不快不慢侄榴。

沉默的電話里，聽見你吃面的聲音网沾，我的心里面不知道是喜還是……（只是也想跟你一起吃泡面）

不善言辭的你癞蚕，有時候莫名地冒出一兩句暖暖的話，雖有點笨拙辉哥，但是始終是改變的第一步桦山。謝謝你。

接到哥的電話醋旦，我終于在他不提醒的時候在練習口語了恒水。他不僅關心我有沒有穿暖，還關心我吃不吃得飽饲齐。電話雖然有點短钉凌，但是我知道他是為我好。

每每練習口語的時候捂人，我發(fā)現(xiàn)自己的錯誤就在于很小很小的單詞上御雕。我也想過放棄，但是滥搭，如果現(xiàn)在放棄了酸纲，那么以后再也不會撿起來了。

（早起的我论熙，好困福青。讓我昏睡……）

When l endeavor to lead a life l picture in my mind,l found it tough to stay it on track.l had? a? crush on? u.

11/10:【It is getting? cold 】

More colder it is,more lazy we? will? be.

11/11【The single day】

l? wasn't so attached to our home team.

All? what l did just wanted to be appreciative of what l received.

? l? was hurt? when? l walked? alone in the playground.There? are many things we have to face frankly.l? was......repeatedly? told? myself not? to? be? what l? disliked.（現(xiàn)在我們所忍受的，都是必須的脓诡。在同鄉(xiāng)會里面无午，我找不到什么歸屬感∽Ｑ瑁可能宪迟，愛只是唯一。）

11/12～16【fail? to? trace my daily? routine 】

It? seems useless and meaningless? when? l? repeat the? familiar? sentences. But the? moment l? expect? to? quit, someone and? something flashed? my? mind.l tried again and again ,until? l? was? null at it.A? blueprint was? pictured? by? me,where? l? master a? fluent? English and? engage in? what? l? adore.

ln? the? last P.E lesson, l? would? fall down if? my? fellows hadn't grasped? me? tightly.? The? destination was? out of? my? reach,and l was? feeling desperate.Thanks to god? and the? assistance of? them, l survived finally.

When how to complete a task becomes a hot-disscussed? issue,so? indifferent? was? l? ,just? like? a? bystander（旁觀者）.

There? are? many? things l? have? to? balance? their pros? and? cons（利弊）.? The? lesson? was? over,but? it? impressed? me? most? and? l? hope? it? can? accompany? me? for? the? rest? of? my? life .