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莉拉和恩佐之間的關(guān)系已經(jīng)很不穩(wěn)定了茬末，帕斯卡萊出現(xiàn)后，她們的關(guān)系又發(fā)生了變化盖矫。帕斯卡萊在這附近一個(gè)工地上干活丽惭，他來圣約翰·特杜奇奧參加一個(gè)意大利Communist的會(huì)議。非常偶然的一個(gè)機(jī)會(huì)辈双，他和恩佐在路上碰到了责掏，他們馬上就恢復(fù)了之前的關(guān)系，他們談起了政治湃望，都表現(xiàn)出很不滿换衬。剛開始，恩佐說話很小心证芭，但讓人驚異的是瞳浦，盡管帕斯卡萊在城區(qū)里已經(jīng)有了一個(gè)重要的職務(wù)，但他肆無忌憚地抨擊自己的政黨废士，他說到了修正主義叫潦，還有工會(huì)。他們倆又成為了哥們兒湃密，莉拉回家吃飯時(shí)，看到帕斯卡萊在四敞，不得不給他也弄點(diǎn)兒吃的泛源。
That equilibrium, already precarious,
? changed when Pasquale reappeared. He was working at a construction site in
? the area and had come to San Giovanni a Teduccio for a meeting of the local
? section of the Communist Party. He and Enzo met on the street, by chance, and
? immediately regained their old intimacy. They ended up talking about
? politics, and manifested the same dissatisfaction. Enzo expressed himself
? cautiously at first, but Pasquale, surprisingly, although he had an important
? local post—secretary of the section—proved to be anything but cautious, and
? he criticized the party, which was revisionist, and the union, which too
? often closed both eyes. The two spent so long talking that Lila found
? Pasquale in the house at dinnertime and had to feed him as well.
那天晚上，開始就不怎么好忿危，她感覺自己被帕斯卡萊審視著达箍，她很努力地控制自己才沒有生氣。帕斯卡萊想干什么铺厨，窺探她缎玫？然后告訴城區(qū)的人她的生活。他有什么權(quán)力審判她解滓？他沒有說一句友好的話赃磨，沒有告訴她家里、農(nóng)奇亞洼裤、她哥哥里諾邻辉，還有費(fèi)爾南多的近況。他的目光，有點(diǎn)兒像工廠里那些男人的目光值骇，帶有評(píng)估和掂量的意思莹菱，假如她覺察到了，他會(huì)把目光轉(zhuǎn)向一邊吱瘩。帕斯卡萊一定覺得她變丑了道伟，他一定在想：我當(dāng)時(shí)是怎么想的，我小時(shí)候怎么會(huì)愛上這個(gè)女人使碾，我真是個(gè)笨蛋蜜徽。但毫無疑問，他一定覺得部逮，莉拉是一個(gè)非常糟糕的母親娜汁，因?yàn)樗究梢栽谌馐车昀习蹇ɡ婕业母辉－h(huán)境里，撫養(yǎng)孩子長大兄朋，但她卻把孩子帶到了這個(gè)破地方掐禁。后來，莉拉嘆了一口氣颅和，她對(duì)恩佐說：“你收拾收拾桌子吧傅事，我去睡覺了∠坷”但這時(shí)候蹭越，讓人驚異的是，帕斯卡萊用一種在重要場合才會(huì)用到的語氣教届，有些激動(dòng)地說：“莉娜响鹃，你去睡覺前，我有一件事情想告訴你：在這個(gè)世界上案训，沒有任何女人像你一樣买置，你的生活充滿力量，假如世界上所有人都有這種力量强霎，那我們這個(gè)世界忿项，早就發(fā)生了變化〕俏瑁”他就是通過這種方式打破了僵局轩触，他告訴莉拉，費(fèi)爾南多又開始給人縫鞋底了家夺，里諾徹底成了斯特凡諾的負(fù)擔(dān)脱柱，他不停地向斯特凡諾要錢，人們很少看見農(nóng)奇亞拉馋，因?yàn)樗苌俪鲩T褐捻。他最后強(qiáng)調(diào)說：“但你做得對(duì)掸茅，整個(gè)城區(qū)，沒有人像你能這樣柠逞，讓卡拉奇和索拉拉家顏面掃地昧狮，我站在你這邊”。
The evening began badly. She felt herself
? observed, and had to make an effort not to get angry. What did Pasquale want,
? to spy on her, report to the neighborhood how she was living? What right did
? he have to come there to judge her? He didn’t speak a single friendly word,
? he brought no news of her family—of Nunzia, of her brother Rino, of Fernando.
? Instead he gave her male looks, the kind she got in the factory, appraising,
? and if she became aware of them he turned his eyes elsewhere. He must have
? found that she had grown ugly. Surely he was thinking, How could I, as a boy,
? have fallen in love with this woman, I was a fool. And without a doubt he
? considered her a terrible mother, since she could have brought up her son in
? the comfort of the Carracci grocery stores and instead she had dragged him
? into that poverty. At a certain point Lila said huffily to Enzo, you clean
? up, I’m going to bed. But Pasquale, to her surprise, assumed a grandiose tone
? and said to her, with some emotion: Lina, before you go I have to tell you
? one thing. There is no woman like you, you throw yourself into life with a
? force that, if we all had it, the world would have changed a long time ago.
? Then, having broken the ice in this way, he told her that Fernando had gone
? back to resoling shoes, that Rino had become Stefano’s cross to bear, and was
? constantly begging him for money, that Nunzia he rarely saw, she never left
? the house. But you did well, he repeated: no one in the neighborhood has
? kicked the Carraccis and the Solaras in the face as much as you, and I’m on
? your side.
那天晚上之后板壮，他們經(jīng)常見面逗鸣，這對(duì)莉拉和恩佐的函授課程影響很大。帕斯卡萊會(huì)在晚飯時(shí)間绰精，帶四個(gè)熱披薩到家里撒璧。他通常扮演這樣一個(gè)角色：就好像他很清楚資本主義世界和反資本主義世界的運(yùn)作方式。他們之間的友誼更進(jìn)一步加深了笨使。很明顯卿樱，他沒什么感情生活，他的妹妹卡門剛剛找到男朋友硫椰，沒時(shí)間照顧他繁调。他用一種充滿怒火的積極態(tài)度來對(duì)抗孤獨(dú)，這是莉拉喜歡的態(tài)度靶草，這也讓她感到好奇蹄胰。在工地上干一天活之后，盡管已經(jīng)筋疲力盡了奕翔，他還是會(huì)負(fù)責(zé)工會(huì)的事情裕寨，去往美國領(lǐng)館門上甩血紅色的油漆，他會(huì)站在最前面派继，和那些法西斯分子動(dòng)手赠潦，他會(huì)參加工人和學(xué)生的大會(huì)岸售，和學(xué)生非常熱烈地爭吵秸讹。更不用說意大利Communist的工作：他從自己的角度猜嘱，提出了很多批評(píng)，這讓他隨時(shí)都可能會(huì)失去支部書記的位子纫普。他和恩佐阅悍、莉拉會(huì)暢所欲言好渠，他會(huì)把個(gè)人情感和政治混合起來昨稼。他抱怨說：“你們知道，我們城區(qū)現(xiàn)在誰是新法西斯黨的頭兒拳锚？是藥劑師的兒子吉諾——米凱萊·索拉拉的傻仆人假栓。難道我要看著法西斯分子在我的城區(qū)抬頭？”他非常激動(dòng)地說：“我的父親霍掺，他把自己的一切都獻(xiàn)給了組織匾荆，為了什么：為了這種摻水的反法西斯主義拌蜘？為了我們今天得到的狗屎局面？”帕斯卡萊生氣地說牙丽，那個(gè)可憐的男人被冤枉了简卧，他被關(guān)進(jìn)了牢里，他是無辜的烤芦，堂·阿奇勒不是他殺死的举娩，是黨放棄他了。他是一個(gè)了不起的黨員构罗，他參加過“那不勒斯四日”
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? 的斗爭铜涉，在圣人橋上斗爭過，在戰(zhàn)后遂唧，他在城區(qū)里要比任何人更顯眼芙代、無畏。朱塞平娜——他的母親盖彭，有人支持過她嗎纹烹？幫助過她嗎？當(dāng)帕斯卡萊提到母親時(shí)谬泌，他把詹納羅放在膝蓋上滔韵，問：“看看你媽媽多美，你愛她嗎掌实？”
After that he showed up often, which cut
? into their studying. He would arrive at dinnertime with four hot pizzas,
? playing his usual role of someone who knows all about how the capitalist and
? anti-*-red paint at the American consulate, if there were fascists to be
? beaten up he was always on the front lines, he was a member of a
? worker-*-fascism to democratic oversight. But do you know who’s been
? installed as the head of the neighborhood fascists? The pharmacist’s son,
? Gino, an idiot slave of Michele Solara. And must I put up with the fact that
? the fascists are raising their heads again in my neighborhood? My father—he
? said, with emotion—gave his entire self to the party, and why: for this
? watered-*-fascism, for this shit we have today? When that poor man ended up
? in jail, innocent, completely innocent, he got angry—he didn’t murder Don
? Achille—the party abandoned him, even though he had been a loyal comrade,
? even though he had taken part in the Four Days of Naples, and fought at the
? Ponte della Sanità, even though after the war, in the neighborhood, he had
? been more exposed than anyone else. And Giuseppina, his mother? Had anyone
? helped her? As soon as he mentioned his mother, Pasquale picked up Gennaro
? and sat him on his lap, saying: See how pretty your mamma is, do you love
? her?
莉拉聽著這些陪蜻，有時(shí)候，她覺得自己當(dāng)時(shí)應(yīng)該答應(yīng)這個(gè)小伙子贱鼻，他是第一個(gè)發(fā)現(xiàn)她的宴卖。她不應(yīng)該把目標(biāo)對(duì)準(zhǔn)斯特凡諾，還有他的錢邻悬，也不應(yīng)該為了尼諾症昏，陷入這樣一個(gè)困境，而是應(yīng)該保持自己的位子父丰，保持頭腦冷靜肝谭，不被虛榮心沖昏了頭腦。但其他時(shí)候蛾扇，帕斯卡萊的抨擊攘烛，使她感覺自己又一次回到了童年，被城區(qū)的殘酷镀首、堂·阿奇勒還有他被殺的事實(shí)所包圍坟漱，她從小就經(jīng)常講述這件事情，充滿了各種細(xì)節(jié)更哄，現(xiàn)在她覺得自己好像當(dāng)時(shí)在場一樣芋齿。這時(shí)候腥寇，她想起了帕斯卡萊的父親被抓時(shí)的情景，木匠的叫喊觅捆，還有他的妻子赦役、女兒卡門。她一點(diǎn)兒也不喜歡當(dāng)時(shí)的情景栅炒，那些真實(shí)的記憶混合著虛假的記憶扩劝，她看到了暴力和鮮血。這讓她覺得很不自在职辅，她醒悟過來了棒呛，她從帕斯卡萊的怨氣里抽身而出，為了平靜下來域携，就把話題引到了他全家人一起過圣誕節(jié)和狂歡節(jié)簇秒，還有他媽媽朱塞平娜的好廚藝。這時(shí)候秀鞭，他很快意識(shí)到趋观，莉拉也像他一樣，缺乏家人的關(guān)懷锋边。后來有一次皱坛，他事先沒打招呼就出現(xiàn)了，興高采烈地對(duì)她說：“你看看豆巨，我把誰給你帶來了剩辟。”他把農(nóng)奇亞帶來了往扔。
Lila listened. At times it occurred to
? her that she should have said yes to that youth, the first who had noticed
? her, rather than aiming Stefano and his money, rather than getting herself in
? trouble with Nino: stayed in her place, not committed the sin of pride,
? pacified her mind. But at other times, because of Pasquale’s tirades, she
? felt gripped again by her childhood, by the ferocity of the neighborhood, by
? Don Achille, by his murder, which she, as a child, had recounted so often and
? with so many invented details that now it seemed to her that she had been
? present. So she remembered the arrest of Pasquale’s father, and how much the
? carpenter had shouted, and his wife, and Carmen, and she didn’t like that,
? true memories mingled with false ones, she saw the violence, the blood. Then
? she roused herself, uneasily, escaped from the flood of Pasquale’s
? bitterness, and to soothe herself she urged him to recall, I don’t know,
? Christmas and Easter in his family, his mother Giuseppina’s cooking. He
? quickly realized what was going on and maybe he thought that Lila missed the
? affections of her family, as he missed his. The fact is that one day he
? showed up without warning and said gaily: Look who I brought you. He had
? brought her Nunzia.
母親和女兒抱在了一起贩猎，農(nóng)奇亞哭了很久，她給詹納羅帶了一個(gè)布縫的匹諾曹萍膛。對(duì)于母親的出現(xiàn)吭服，莉拉剛開始表現(xiàn)得很高興，但是當(dāng)農(nóng)齊亞開始批評(píng)女兒做出的選擇蝗罗，莉拉就跟她說：“媽艇棕，要么我們就當(dāng)什么事兒也沒發(fā)生過，要么你就回去吧串塑≌恿穑”農(nóng)奇亞生氣了，就去和孩子玩去了拟赊，就好像真的是和小孩在說話刺桃，她有好幾次都說：“你媽媽要去干活粹淋，在工廠賣命吸祟，可憐的孩子瑟慈，誰看你啊屋匕？”這時(shí)候葛碧，帕斯卡萊明白，自己做了一件蠢事兒过吻，他說時(shí)間晚了进泼，要走了。農(nóng)奇亞站起身來纤虽，她對(duì)著女兒乳绕，用帶著威脅和懇求的語氣抱怨說：“你之前讓我們過著闊人的生活，現(xiàn)在你把我們毀了逼纸。你哥哥覺得自己被拋棄了洋措，他現(xiàn)在再也不想看到你，你父親就當(dāng)沒有生過你這個(gè)女兒杰刽。莉拉菠发，求求你了，我不是說你要和你丈夫和好贺嫂，這也已經(jīng)不可能了滓鸠，但你至少要和索拉拉說清楚，因?yàn)槟愕木壒实谠麄冃值軅z把一切都收回去了糜俗，現(xiàn)在你父親、里諾曲饱，我們賽魯羅全家人又什么都不是了吩跋。”
Mother and daughter embraced, Nunzia
? cried for a long time, and gave Gennaro a Pinocchio ragdoll. But as soon as
? she started to criticize her daughter’s decisions, Lila, who at first had
? appeared happy to see her, said: Ma, either we act as if nothing happened or
? it’s better that you go. Nunzia was offended, she played with the child, and
? kept saying, as if she really were talking to the boy: If your mamma goes to
? work, what about you, poor thing, where does she leave you? At that point
? Pasquale realized he had made a mistake, he said it was late and they had to
? go. Nunzia got up and spoke to her daughter, partly threatening her, partly
? entreating her. You, she complained. First you had us living the life of rich
? people and then you ruined us: your brother felt abandoned and doesn’t want
? to see you anymore, your father has effaced you; Lina, please, I’m not
? telling you to make peace with your husband, that’s not possible, but at
? least clear things up with the Solaras; they’ve taken everything because of
? you, and Rino, your father, we Cerullos, now once again we’re nothing.
莉拉在那里聽她說著這些渔工，最后幾乎是把母親推出家門的锌钮。她說：“媽，你最好不要再來了引矩×呵穑”她對(duì)帕斯卡萊也說了同樣的話。
Lila listened and then she practically
? pushed her out, saying: Ma, it’s better if you don’t come back. She shouted
? the same thing to Pasquale as well.
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莉拉有太多問題要面對(duì)：對(duì)詹納羅的愧疚旺韭，對(duì)恩佐的愧疚感氛谜，上班的辛苦，加班区端，布魯諾的猥褻值漫，娘家人又開始對(duì)她施壓。帕斯卡萊的出現(xiàn)并沒有起到什么作用织盼，卻很煩人杨何，莉拉對(duì)他很冷淡酱塔，但他從來都不會(huì)生氣，總是興高采烈地上門來找他們危虱，有時(shí)候會(huì)拉著莉拉羊娃、詹納羅還有恩佐一起去吃披薩，有時(shí)候會(huì)用車子載著他們到阿杰羅拉去埃跷，讓孩子呼吸新鮮空氣蕊玷。但他最大的目的是想把莉拉拉進(jìn)自己的組織。他促使莉拉注冊(cè)了工會(huì)弥雹，盡管她并不想垃帅，但她最后注冊(cè)了，只是為了讓布魯諾·索卡沃不舒服剪勿。他給莉拉帶來了各種類型的冊(cè)子挺智，里面的內(nèi)容很清楚，也很簡要窗宦，都是關(guān)于薪水的問題赦颇、工人和老板之間的協(xié)商、薪水的構(gòu)成等等赴涵，他知道有些冊(cè)子媒怯，即使他一眼都不會(huì)看，但莉拉遲早會(huì)讀的髓窜。他拉著莉拉扇苞、恩佐還有孩子去了基亞亞海岸，那里有一場反對(duì)越南戰(zhàn)爭的游行寄纵，游行最后演變稱了一場斗毆：法西斯分子在挑釁鳖敷，和警察發(fā)生了沖撞，石頭亂飛程拭，帕斯卡萊動(dòng)手打人定踱，莉拉在罵人，恩佐也開始懊悔他們把孩子帶到那個(gè)亂七八糟的地方恃鞋。
Too many problems at once: the feelings
? of guilt toward Gennaro, toward Enzo; the cruel shifts at work, the overtime,
? Bruno’s obscenities; her family, who wanted to return to burden her; and that
? presence of Pasquale, toward whom it was pointless to be aloof. He never got
? angry; he burst in cheerfully, sometimes dragging Lila, Gennaro, and Enzo out
? to a pizzeria, sometimes driving them in the car to Agerola so the child
? could have some fresh air. But mostly he tried to involve her in his
? activities. He pushed her to join the union, even though she didn’t want to
? and did it only to slight Soccavo, who wouldn’t like it. He brought her
? pamphlets of various kinds, very clear, concise, on subjects like the pay
? package, collective bargaining, wage differentials, knowing that even if he
? hadn’t opened them Lila would sooner or later read them. He took her with
? Enzo and the child to Riviera di Chiaia, to a demonstration for peace in
? Vietnam that turned into a general stampede: rocks flying, fascists stirring
? things up, police charging, Pasquale punching, Lila shouting insults, and
? Enzo cursing the moment they had decided to take Gennaro into the middle of
? that fracas.
那個(gè)階段發(fā)生了兩件事情崖媚，對(duì)于莉拉來說尤其重要。有一次恤浪，帕斯卡萊堅(jiān)持要她來聽一個(gè)意大利Communist的要人的報(bào)告畅哑。莉拉接受了邀請(qǐng)，她很好奇水由，但她沒怎么聽那人的報(bào)告——基本講的是黨和工人階級(jí)的事兒——因?yàn)檫@位女黨員遲到了荠呐，等她終于到了，那場會(huì)議開始了，詹納羅吵鬧不已泥张，她不得不哄孩子呵恢，她一會(huì)兒來到街上和他玩兒，一會(huì)兒把他帶進(jìn)去圾结，進(jìn)進(jìn)出出好幾次。但她偶然聽的那幾句齿诉，就足以讓她明白筝野，這個(gè)女人和她的聽眾——那些工人階級(jí)還有小資產(chǎn)階級(jí)是多么不同。因此粤剧，當(dāng)她意識(shí)到帕斯卡萊歇竟、恩佐還有其他幾個(gè)人對(duì)于這個(gè)做報(bào)告的人很不滿意，她覺得他們不應(yīng)該這樣抵恋，他們應(yīng)該對(duì)這個(gè)有文化的女士感到感激焕议，因?yàn)樗齺淼竭@里，在他們身上浪費(fèi)時(shí)間弧关，是一件值得稱道的事兒盅安。隨后，帕斯卡萊也發(fā)言了世囊，但言辭充滿挑釁别瞭，那個(gè)女同志非常氣憤，她用顫抖的聲音說：“夠了株憾，現(xiàn)在我要走了蝙寨。”莉拉喜歡這個(gè)女黨員的反應(yīng)嗤瞎，覺得她做得對(duì)墙歪，但像往常一樣，她內(nèi)心有各種混亂的情感贝奇。這時(shí)候虹菲，恩佐支持帕斯卡萊，他叫喊道：“同志掉瞳，如果沒有我們的話届惋，就不會(huì)有你，因此你還是乖乖待著菠赚，我們讓你走脑豹，你再走『獠椋”這時(shí)瘩欺，莉拉忽然改變了態(tài)度，她覺得自己是充滿暴力的“我們”中的一員，那女人是活該俱饿。她怒氣沖沖地帶著孩子回到家里歌粥，那個(gè)晚上都是被孩子毀了。
But there were two episodes in
? particular, in that period, that were significant for Lila. Once Pasquale
? insisted that she come to hear an important comrade, a woman. Lila accepted
? the invitation; she was curious. But she heard almost none of the speech—a
? speech more or less about the party and the working class—because the
? important comrade arrived late and when the meeting finally began Gennaro was
? fidgety, and she had to amuse him, taking him out to the street to play,
? bringing him back inside, taking him out again. Yet the little she heard was
? enough for her to understand how much dignity the woman had, and how distinct
? she was in every way from the working-*-middle-class audience. So when she
? noticed that Pasquale, Enzo, and some others weren’t satisfied with what the
? speaker was saying, she thought that they were unfair, that they should be
? grateful to that educated woman who had come to waste her time with them. And
? when Pasquale made a speech so argumentative that the comrade delegate lost
? her temper and, her voice cracking, exclaimed, in irritation, That’s enough,
? I’m going to get up and leave, that reaction pleased her, she took her side.
? But evidently her feelings were, as usual, muddled. When Enzo shouted, in
? support of Pasquale: Comrade, without us you don’t even exist, so you stay as
? long as we want you to, and go only when we tell you, she changed her mind,
? with sudden sympathy for the violence of that we—it seemed to her that the
? woman deserved it. She went home angry at the child, who had ruined the
? evening for her.
那場由帕斯卡萊組織的會(huì)議拍埠，更加讓人不安失驶，他簡直太積極了。莉拉去參加了枣购，因?yàn)榕了箍ㄈR很在意她去嬉探，另外她也覺得，帕斯卡萊那么渴望深入探討工人的處境棉圈，這是一件好事兒涩堤。那次會(huì)議是在那不勒斯的法院路舉行的，那天晚上分瘾，他們是坐著帕斯卡萊的車子去的胎围。他們后來爬上了一些雖然破舊，但是依然很壯觀的臺(tái)階德召。那個(gè)地方很大白魂，但出席的人很少。莉拉發(fā)現(xiàn)上岗，她一眼就能把學(xué)生和工人區(qū)分開來碧聪，她還看到領(lǐng)導(dǎo)們很從容，普通群眾結(jié)結(jié)巴巴液茎。有一件事情讓她很不愉快逞姿，她覺得那些學(xué)生很虛偽，他們做出一副平易近人的樣子捆等，說著賣弄學(xué)問的話名斟，但翻來覆去都是這些話：我們來這里俄认，是為了向你們學(xué)習(xí)。他們想說的是向工人學(xué)習(xí)，但實(shí)際上熟妓，他們炫耀自己擁有的關(guān)于資本驻仅、剝削其徙、社會(huì)民主黨的背叛唯灵，還有階級(jí)斗爭的知識(shí)，可以說思想過于清晰薯定。再加上她發(fā)現(xiàn)始绍，在場的少數(shù)幾個(gè)姑娘，通常都沉默不語话侄，但這時(shí)候亏推，她們?cè)诙髯艉团了箍ㄈR面前都搔首弄姿学赛，尤其是在帕斯卡萊面前，因?yàn)樗≌勔稽c(diǎn)兒吞杭，女孩子對(duì)他都很熱情盏浇。他雖然是個(gè)工人，但他選擇把自己作為無產(chǎn)階級(jí)的體驗(yàn)芽狗，帶到一個(gè)革命性的大會(huì)上绢掰。那些學(xué)生之間總是你爭我吵，但當(dāng)他和恩佐發(fā)言時(shí)童擎，他們都在一個(gè)勁兒點(diǎn)頭滴劲。恩佐像往常一樣話少而精，但帕斯卡萊一直在說柔昼，用一種夾雜著方言的意大利語哑芹，講到了他在郊區(qū)政治工作的進(jìn)程炎辨，然后責(zé)問學(xué)生都干了什么捕透，批評(píng)他們的工作不夠積極。最后碴萧，帕斯卡萊忽然間就提到了莉拉乙嘀，他提到了她的姓名，說她是一位Communist員破喻，在一家小食品工廠里工作虎谢，他說了很多她的好話。
Much more lively was a meeting of the
? committee that Pasquale, with his thirst for engagement, had joined. Lila
? went not only because it meant a lot to him but because it seemed to her that
? the restlessness that drove him to try and to understand was good. The
? committee met in Naples, in an old house on Via dei Tribunali. They arrived
? one night in Pasquale’s car, and climbed up crumbling, monumental stairs. The
? place was large, and there weren’t many people present. Lila noticed how easy
? it was to distinguish the faces of the students from those of the workers,
? the fluency of the leaders from the stuttering of the followers. And she
? quickly became irritated. The students made speeches that seemed to her
? hypocritical; they had a modest manner that clashed with their pedantic
? phrases. The refrain, besides, was always the same: We’re here to learn from
? you, meaning from the workers, but in reality they were showing off ideas
? that were almost too obvious about capital, about exploitation, about the
? betrayal of social democracy, about the modalities of the class struggle.
? Furthermore—she discovered—the few girls, who were mostly silent, flirted
? eagerly with Enzo and Pasquale. Especially Pasquale, who was the more
? sociable, and was treated with great friendliness. He was a worker
? who—although he carried a Communist Party card, and was the head of a
? section—had chosen to bring his experience of the proletariat into a
? revolutionary meeting. When he and Enzo spoke, the students, who among
? themselves did nothing but quarrel, always registered approval. Enzo as usual
? said only a few, loaded words. Pasquale, on the other hand, recounted, with
? an inexhaustible patter, half in Italian, half in dialect, the progress that
? the political work was making at the construction sites around Naples,
? hurling small polemical darts at the students, who hadn’t been very active.
? At the conclusion, without warning, he dragged her, Lila, into it. He
? introduced her by her name and last name, he called her a worker comrade who
? had a job in a small food factory, and he heaped praises on her.
莉拉的眉頭皺了起來曹质，她瞇著眼睛婴噩，她不喜歡所有人都像看珍稀動(dòng)物那樣看著自己。帕斯卡萊說完之后羽德，這時(shí)候有一個(gè)女孩發(fā)言——這是在場少有的幾個(gè)女性中第一個(gè)發(fā)言的人几莽，這讓莉拉更加厭煩：首先因?yàn)樗f話就像在念書；其次是宅静，她好幾次提到莉拉章蚣，稱她為賽魯羅同志；第三個(gè)原因是她認(rèn)識(shí)這個(gè)女孩姨夹，她是娜迪雅——加利亞尼老師的女兒纤垂，尼諾當(dāng)年的小女朋友，在伊斯基亞時(shí)給尼諾寫過情書的那個(gè)女孩磷账。
Lila furrowed her brow and narrowed her
? eyes: she didn’t like them all looking at her like a rare animal. And when,
? after Pasquale, a girl spoke—the first of the girls to speak—she became even
? more annoyed, first of all because the girl expressed herself like a book,
? second because she kept referring to her, calling her Comrade Cerullo, and,
? third, because Lila already knew her: it was Nadia, the daughter of Professor
? Galiani, Nino’s little girlfriend, who had written him love letters on
? Ischia.
剛開始峭沦，她擔(dān)心娜迪雅認(rèn)出她來，但這個(gè)姑娘在說話時(shí)逃糟，一直都看著她熙侍，并沒有認(rèn)出她來的意思。再說，她怎么可能認(rèn)出莉拉呢蛉抓？誰知道她參加過多少次有錢人的聚會(huì)庆尘，她腦子里面一定全是人。但在幾年前巷送，莉拉只有唯一的那一次機(jī)會(huì)驶忌，那場聚會(huì)給她留下了很深的印象。她清楚地記得：那所房子位于維托利奧·埃馬努埃萊大街上笑跛，她看到了尼諾付魔，還有那些出身良好家庭的年輕人，那些書籍飞蹂、繪畫几苍，還有她感受到的痛苦，以及那時(shí)她糟糕的處境陈哑。娜迪雅還在說話妻坝，但莉拉實(shí)在受不了了，就站起身來惊窖，和詹納羅出去了刽宪。她內(nèi)心有一種痛楚，這讓她胃里在翻滾界酒，但找不到具體的宣泄辦法圣拄。
For a moment she was afraid that Nadia
? had in turn recognized her, but although the girl addressed her as she spoke,
? she gave no sign of remembering her. Besides, why should she? Who could say
? how many rich people’s parties she had gone to and what crowd of shadows
? inhabited her memory? For Lila, on the other hand, there had been that one
? long-ago occasion, and she remained struck by it. She recalled the apartment
? on Corso Vittorio Emanuele precisely, along with Nino and all those young
? people from good families, the books, the paintings, and her own agonizing
? experience of it, the unease it had inspired. She couldn’t bear it, she got
? up while Nadia was still speaking and went out with Gennaro, carrying inside
? her an evil energy that, finding no precise outlet, writhed in her stomach.
過了一會(huì)兒，她又回到了大廳里毁欣，她決定說出自己的體驗(yàn)庇谆，而不是表現(xiàn)得自己無足輕重。現(xiàn)在是一個(gè)鬈發(fā)小伙子在談?wù)撘獯罄苯饦I(yè)和按勞計(jì)酬的問題凭疮，他說得很詳盡饭耳。莉拉等他說完，她無視恩佐不安的眼神哭尝，要求發(fā)言哥攘。她談了很久，是用標(biāo)準(zhǔn)的意大利語說的材鹦，這時(shí)候詹納羅一直在她懷里折騰逝淹。她開始說得很慢，最后聲音越來越大桶唐，在周圍的寂靜中栅葡，也許她的聲音太大了。她開玩笑說尤泽，自己一點(diǎn)兒也不了解什么是工人階級(jí)欣簇，只認(rèn)識(shí)她工作的地方的男女工人规脸，她說在這些人身上，除了貧窮熊咽，絕對(duì)沒有任何值得學(xué)習(xí)的地方莫鸭。你們能想象嗎？她問横殴，每天八個(gè)小時(shí)被因，水一直漫到皮帶那里，浸泡在煮大肉香腸的水里衫仑，是一種什么樣的體驗(yàn)梨与？在去骨頭時(shí)，手上全是傷口文狱，你們能想象嗎粥鞋？在零下二十度的溫度中進(jìn)出冰庫，每小時(shí)多掙十里拉——十里拉——作為凍傷補(bǔ)貼瞄崇，你們可以想象嗎呻粹？假如你們可以想象，從這些被迫這樣生活的人身上杠袱，你們覺得能學(xué)到什么東西尚猿？那些女工被工頭或者其他同事摸屁股窝稿，她們也不敢吭氣楣富。假如老板的兒子有需求，你就得跟他去儲(chǔ)藏室伴榔，這是他父親纹蝴，或者是爺爺已經(jīng)開始干的，就是在上你之前踪少，老板的兒子還會(huì)跟你發(fā)表一段激昂的演說塘安，說香腸的味道讓他有多興奮。在工廠里援奢，男人和女人都會(huì)被搜身兼犯，在出口的地方有個(gè)“探測(cè)器”，假如是紅燈而不是綠燈亮了集漾，意思是你身上有香腸或者肥肉腸切黔。這個(gè)“探測(cè)器”是門衛(wèi)控制的，他是老板的心腹具篇，有時(shí)候紅燈亮了纬霞，并不是因?yàn)橛腥送禆|西，而是因?yàn)橛幸粋€(gè)漂亮靦腆的姑娘經(jīng)過驱显，門衛(wèi)想騷擾一下她诗芜。這就是我工作的地方的情況瞳抓，工會(huì)的人從來沒能進(jìn)到里面，這些工人只是一些可憐人伏恐，在老板的挾持和壓迫之下賣命孩哑，老板的法律就是：我付錢給你，因此我擁有你翠桦，我擁有你的生命臭笆、你的家庭和圍繞著你的一切，假如你不按照我說的做秤掌，我就會(huì)毀掉你愁铺。
After a while, however, she returned; she
? had decided to have her say, in order not to feel inferior. A curly-headed
? youth was speaking with great expertise about Italsider and piecework. Lila
? waited for him to finish and, ignoring Enzo’s look of bewilderment, asked to
? speak. She spoke for a long time, in Italian, with Gennaro fussing in her
? arms. She began slowly, then she continued on amid a general silence, perhaps
? her voice was too loud. She said jokingly that she knew nothing about the
? working class. She said she knew only the workers, men and women, in the
? factory where she worked, people from whom there was absolutely nothing to
? learn except wretchedness. Can you imagine, she asked, what it means to spend
? eight hours a day standing up to your waist in the mortadella cooking water?
? Can you imagine what it means to have your fingers covered with cuts from
? slicing the meat off animal bones? Can you imagine what it means to go in and
? out of refrigerated rooms at twenty degrees below zero, and get ten lire more
? an hour—ten lire—for cold compensation? If you imagine this, what do you
? think you can learn from people who are forced to live like that? The women
? have to let their asses be groped by supervisors and colleagues without
? saying a word. If the owner feels the need, someone has to follow him into
? the seasoning room; his father used to ask for the same thing, maybe also his
? grandfather; and there, before he jumps all over you, that same owner makes
? you a tired little speech on how the odor of salami excites him. Men and
? women both are subjected to body searches, because at the exit there’s
? something called the “partial,” and if the red light goes on instead of the
? green, it means that you’re stealing salamis or mortadellas. The “partial” is
? controlled by the guard, who’s a spy for the owner, and turns on the red
? light not only for possible thieves but especially for shy pretty girls and
? for troublemakers. That is the situation in the factory where I work. The
? union has never gone in and the workers are nothing but poor victims of
? blackmail, dependent on the law of the owner, that is: I pay you and so I
? possess you and I possess your life, your family, and everything that
? surrounds you, and if you don’t do as I say I’ll ruin you.
剛開始，沒有人吭氣闻鉴。最后其他幾個(gè)人的發(fā)言茵乱，一直引用莉拉說的話。最后娜迪雅過來擁抱了她孟岛，說了很多恭維的話：你真美瓶竭！你真棒！你說得真好渠羞！她對(duì)莉拉表示感謝斤贰，并很嚴(yán)肅地說：“你讓我了解到，我們還有多少工作要做次询∮校”盡管娜迪雅的調(diào)子很高，語氣很莊重屯吊，但莉拉覺得送巡，她還是多年之前見到的那個(gè)小女孩，那個(gè)和尼諾在一起的女孩盒卸，甚至比當(dāng)時(shí)還幼稚骗爆。她和薩拉托雷的兒子當(dāng)時(shí)在做什么呢？他們跳舞蔽介，聊天摘投，相互磨蹭，接吻嗎虹蓄？她無法想象犀呼。當(dāng)然，娜迪雅當(dāng)時(shí)很漂亮武花，讓人過目難忘≡不耍現(xiàn)在她的樣子，好像要比當(dāng)時(shí)還要清純体箕，那么單純专钉、脆弱挑童，那么能為別人的痛苦著想，好像能夠切身感受到工人的痛苦跃须，這種感同身受站叼，似乎令她無法承受。
At first no one breathed. Then other
? speakers followed, who all quoted Lila devotedly. At the end Nadia came to
? give her a hug. She was full of compliments, How pretty you are, how clever,
? you speak so well. She thanked her, and said seriously: You’ve made us
? understand how much work we still have to do. But in spite of her lofty,
? almost solemn tone, to Lila she seemed more childish than she remembered
? when, that night years earlier, she had seen her with Nino. What did they do,
? she and the son of Sarratore, did they dance, did they talk, did they stroke
? each other, did they kiss? She no longer knew. Certainly, the girl had a
? loveliness that was unforgettable. And now Lila thought, seeing Nadia right
? before her, she seemed even purer than she had then, pure and fragile and so
? genuinely open to the suffering of others that she appeared to feel their
? torments in her own body to an unendurable extent.
“你還來嗎菇民？”
“Will you come back?”
“我有孩子呢尽楔。”
“I have the child.”
“你要繼續(xù)來參加活動(dòng)第练，我們需要你阔馋。”
“You have to come back, we need you.”
但莉拉很不自在地?fù)u了搖頭娇掏，她對(duì)娜迪雅重復(fù)說：“我有孩子呕寝。”她用手把詹納羅指給娜迪雅看婴梧，并對(duì)詹納羅說：“你向這位小姐問個(gè)好下梢，告訴她，你會(huì)讀書寫字塞蹭，你讓她聽聽孽江，你說話說得多好》纾”詹納羅抱著莉拉的脖子岗屏，擋著了她的臉，娜迪雅在點(diǎn)頭微笑钧舌，但莉拉并沒有看到担汤。她對(duì)娜迪雅說：“我有孩子涎跨，我每天工作八個(gè)小時(shí)洼冻，還不算加班的時(shí)間，像我這種處境的人隅很，每天一下班就想著睡覺撞牢。”最后她有些精疲力竭叔营，她覺得她在外人面前過于暴露自己了屋彪。是的，這些都是好人绒尊，他們雖然非常了解那些抽象的東西畜挥，但可能對(duì)具體的情況并不了解。我知道——莉拉腦子里這樣想著婴谱，但并沒有說出來——我知道蟹但，過著富裕的生活躯泰，充滿了好的意愿是怎么回事兒，而你都沒法想象真正的貧窮是什么樣子的华糖。
But Lila shook her head uneasily, she
? repeated to Nadia: I have the child, and pointed to him, and to Gennaro she
? said, Say hello to the lady, tell her you know how to read and write, let her
? hear how well you speak. And since Gennaro hid his face against her neck
? while Nadia smiled vaguely but didn’t seem to notice him, she said again to
? her: I have the child, I work eight hours a day not counting overtime, people
? in my situation want only to sleep at night. She left in a daze, with the
? impression of having exposed herself too fully to people who, yes, were
? good-hearted but who, even if they understood it in the abstract, in the
? concrete couldn’t understand a thing. I know—it stayed in her head without
? becoming sound—I know what a comfortable life full of good intentions means,
? you can’t even imagine what real misery is.
來到街上麦向，她的那種不舒服的感覺更強(qiáng)烈了。他們走向汽車時(shí)客叉，她感到帕斯卡萊和恩佐都有些悶悶不樂诵竭，她感到自己的發(fā)言傷到他們了。帕斯卡萊很輕柔地拉著她的一只胳膊兼搏，那是他之前從來沒有過的舉動(dòng)卵慰，他是想拉近他們之間的距離。他問：
Once she was on the street her uneasiness
? increased. As they went toward the car, she felt that Pasquale and Enzo were
? sulking, she guessed that her speech had wounded them. Pasquale took her
? gently by the arm, closing a physical gap that before that moment he had
? never tried to close, and asked her:
“你真的在那種條件下工作佛呻？”
“You really work in those conditions?”
這種身體接觸讓她很煩呵燕，她甩開了他的手，反問了一句：
She, irritated by the contact, pulled her
? arm away, protesting:
“你是怎么工作的件相，你們倆是怎么工作的再扭？”
?“And how do you work, the two of you, how do? you work?”
他們沒有回答，他們干活很累夜矗，這大家都心知肚明泛范。至少恩佐會(huì)親眼看到，在工廠里紊撕，有些女工被辛苦的工作折磨罢荡，還要遭受凌辱、承擔(dān)家務(wù)对扶，她們并不比莉拉輕松区赵。然而現(xiàn)在兩個(gè)男人，都為她的工作處境而陰沉著臉浪南，他們沒辦法容忍這一點(diǎn)笼才。對(duì)這些男人，真需要隱瞞一切络凿。他們更希望什么都不知道骡送，他們更愿意假裝在廠子里的那些老板做的事情，會(huì)奇跡般地絮记，不會(huì)發(fā)生在自己在意的女人身上——這就是他們從小都有的思想——他們應(yīng)該保護(hù)自己的女人摔踱，那是即使被殺，也不能逃避的責(zé)任怨愤。他們的沉默派敷，讓莉拉更加氣憤了。
They didn’t answer. They worked hard,
? that was obvious. And at least Enzo in front of him, in the factory, women
? worn out by the work, by humiliations, by domestic obligations no less than
? Lila was. Yet now they were both angry because of the conditions she worked
? in; they couldn’t tolerate it. You had to hide everything from men. They
? preferred not to know, they preferred to pretend that what happened at the
? hands of the boss miraculously didn’t happen to the women important to them
? and that—this was the idea they had grown up with—they had to protect her
? even at the risk of being killed. In the face of that silence Lila got even
? angrier.
“去他媽的！”她說篮愉，“你們般眉，還有其他人∏敝В”
?“Fuck off,” she said, “you and the working? class.”
他們上了車甸赃，到圣約翰·特杜奇奧，一路上也只是泛泛說了幾句冗酿。帕斯卡萊的車把他們放在樓下埠对，帕斯卡萊很嚴(yán)肅地對(duì)莉拉說：沒什么可說的，你還是最出色的裁替。然后项玛，他開車回城區(qū)去了。恩佐懷里抱著睡著的孩子弱判，臉色陰沉地嘟囔了一句：
They got in the car, exchanging only
? trite remarks all the way to San Giovanni a Teduccio. But when Pasquale left
? them at their house he said to her seriously: There’s nothing to do, you’re
? always the best, and then he left again for the neighborhood. Enzo, instead,
? with the child asleep in his arms, muttered darkly:
“你為什么從來都沒對(duì)我說過襟沮？有人在廠里碰你了嗎？”
“Why didn’t you say anything? People in
? the factory put their hands on you?”
他們都累了，莉拉決定讓他平靜下來，就對(duì)他說：
They were tired, she decided to soothe
? him. She said:
“他們不敢對(duì)我怎么樣奈懒。”
“With me they don’t dare.”
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32
幾天之后固灵，問題出現(xiàn)了。莉拉一大早來到了上班的地方劫流，因?yàn)橛泻芏嗍虑橐鑫撞＃置δ_亂的，對(duì)于要發(fā)生的事情祠汇，她根本沒有心理準(zhǔn)備仍秤。天氣非常冷，她已經(jīng)咳嗽了好幾天了可很，她覺得自己感冒了诗力。在工廠門口，她看到了幾個(gè)男孩根穷，可能是逃學(xué)的學(xué)生姜骡，其中有一個(gè)很親切地跟她打了個(gè)招呼，并給了她一份油印的冊(cè)子屿良，而不是像之前那樣，只是給她一張傳單惫周。莉拉在法院路上的黨代表大會(huì)上見過他尘惧，她也跟那個(gè)男孩打了個(gè)招呼，目光有些忐忑递递。她把那個(gè)宣傳冊(cè)放在大衣口袋里喷橙，她經(jīng)過門衛(wèi)菲利普面前時(shí)啥么，看都沒看他一眼。這時(shí)候菲利普對(duì)著她喊：“哎贰逾！你至少要打個(gè)招呼啊悬荣，我們從來連一句‘早上好’都沒說過「斫＃”
A few days later the trouble began. Lila
? arrived at work early in the morning, worn out by her innumerable tasks and
? completely unprepared for what was about to happen. It was very cold, she’d
? had a cough for days, it felt like flu coming on. At the entrance she saw a
? couple of kids, they must have decided to skip school. One of them greeted
? her with some familiarity and gave her not a flyer as sometimes happened but
? a pamphlet several pages long. She responded to his greeting but she was
? bewildered; she had seen the boy at the committee meeting on Via dei
? Tribunali. Then she put the pamphlet in her coat pocket and passed Filippo,
? the guard, without deigning to look at him, so he shouted after her: Not even
? a good morning, eh.
她還是像之前那樣拼命工作氯迂，在那個(gè)階段她在剔骨區(qū)工作，她忘記了在門口遇到的那個(gè)男孩言缤。吃午飯時(shí)嚼蚀，她帶著飯盒來到了工廠的院子里，想找個(gè)角落吃管挟，這時(shí)候菲利普一看見她轿曙，就離開了崗?fù)ぃ蛩吡诉^來僻孝。那是一個(gè)五十多歲的男人导帝，個(gè)子不高，身子很重穿铆，他有猥褻得讓人作嘔的一面舟扎，但有時(shí)候也喜歡和人套近乎。最近他得了一個(gè)兒子悴务，他很容易感動(dòng)睹限，他經(jīng)常從錢包里拿出兒子的照片給大家看。莉拉看到他走了過來讯檐，以為他要展示兒子的照片羡疗，但事情并非如此。那個(gè)男人從夾克口袋里掏出了一個(gè)宣傳冊(cè)别洪，用一種充滿威脅的語氣叨恨，惡狠狠地說：
She worked extremely hard as usual—at
? that time she was in the gutting section—and forgot about the boy. At
? lunchtime she went into the courtyard with her lunchbox to find a sunny
? corner, but as soon as Filippo saw her he left the guard booth and joined her.
? He was a man of about fifty, short, heavy, full of the most disgusting
? obscenities but also inclined to a sticky sentimentality. He had recently had
? his sixth child, and he easily became emotional, pulling out his wallet to
? show off a picture of the baby. Lila thought he had decided to show it to her
? as well, but no. The man pulled the pamphlet out of his jacket pocket and
? said to her in an extremely aggressive tone:
“賽魯！你聽仔細(xì)了：假如這上面寫的事兒挖垛，是你告訴那些爛人的痒钝，那你就要倒大霉了，你明白嗎痢毒？”
“Cerù, listen carefully to what I’m
? telling you: if you said to these shits the things that are written here,
? you’ve got yourself in deep trouble, you know?”
她冷冰冰地說：
She answered coldly:
“我不懂你他媽在說什么送矩，我要吃飯了∧奶妫”
“I don’t know what the fuck you’re
? talking about, let me eat.”
菲利普非常氣憤地把宣傳冊(cè)甩到她臉上栋荸，說：
Filippo, angrily throwing the pamphlet in
? her face, snapped:
“你不知道，嗯？你看看就知道了晌块。我們?cè)谶@里面的人一直都非常友愛爱沟，沒什么矛盾，只有像你這樣的婊子匆背，才會(huì)在外面說這些事兒呼伸。我想什么時(shí)候打開報(bào)警器就什么時(shí)候打開？我對(duì)那些女工動(dòng)手動(dòng)腳钝尸？我作為一家之主——一個(gè)有孩子的人括享，怎么會(huì)做出這種事情？你看吧蝶怔，我會(huì)告訴布魯諾老板奶浦，你會(huì)付出代價(jià)的。你這個(gè)賤人踢星，我真想撕破你這張臉澳叉。”
“You don’t know, eh? Read it, then. We
? were all happy and in harmony here, and only a whore like you could spread
? these things. I turn on the ‘partial’ as I please? I put my hands on the
? girls? I, the father of a family? Look out, or don Bruno will make you pay,
? and dearly, or by God I’ll smash your face myself.”
說完沐悦，他轉(zhuǎn)身走回了崗?fù)ぁ?/p>
He turned and went back to the guard
? booth.
莉拉很鎮(zhèn)靜地吃完了午飯成洗，她撿起了那個(gè)宣傳冊(cè)，看到上面的標(biāo)題非常浮夸：《那不勒斯以及城郊的工人處境調(diào)查》藏否。她翻閱了一下瓶殃，看到有整整一頁，寫的都是索卡沃香腸廠副签。她在文章里看到了她在法院路上那次會(huì)議上說的每個(gè)字遥椿。
Lila calmly finished eating, then she
? picked up the pamphlet. The title was pretentious: “Investigation Into the
? Condition of Workers in Naples and the Provinces.” She scanned the pages, and
? found one devoted entirely to the Soccavo sausage factory. She read word for
? word everything that had come out of her mouth at the meeting on Via dei
? Tribunali.
她假裝什么事兒也沒發(fā)生，把宣傳冊(cè)丟在地上淆储，沒有回頭看門房冠场，就徑直走進(jìn)了廠房開始工作。但是本砰，對(duì)于那個(gè)沒有事先通知她碴裙，就給她招惹了這么大麻煩的人，她充滿了憤怒点额。娜迪雅那個(gè)小圣女舔株，這文章一定是她寫的！文字矯揉造作还棱，語氣煽情载慈，一看就是她寫的。莉拉拿著小刀诱贿，在那些冷肉上進(jìn)行操作娃肿，那種讓人作嘔的氣味讓她的憤怒更加強(qiáng)烈咕缎。她能感覺到周圍同事的敵意珠十，男的女的都是那種態(tài)度料扰。他們?cè)谝黄鸸ぷ骱荛L時(shí)間了，他們知道自己遭到剝削焙蹭，但都沒人吱聲晒杈。是誰揭發(fā)了這里的事兒？他們都毫無疑問地認(rèn)為是她孔厉。因?yàn)樗俏ㄒ粡囊婚_始就表現(xiàn)出這種態(tài)度的人：可以賣命勞動(dòng)拯钻，但絕不受辱。
She pretended it was nothing. She left
? the pamphlet on the ground, she went inside without even looking at the guard
? booth and returned to work. But she was furious with whoever had gotten her
? into that mess, and without even warning her, especially saintly Nadia.
? Surely she had written that stuff, it was all tidily in order and full of
? maudlin emotion. As she worked the knife on the cold meat and the odor made
? her sick and her rage increased, she felt around her the hostility of the
? other workers, male and female. They had all known one another a long time,
? they knew they were complicit victims, and they had no doubt about who the
? whistleblower was: she, the only one who behaved from the start as if the
? need to work didn’t go hand in hand with the need to be humiliated.
下午撰豺，布魯諾出現(xiàn)了粪般，過了沒多久，他就讓人來叫她污桦。他的臉比平時(shí)更加紅亩歹，手里拿著那個(gè)宣傳冊(cè)。
In the afternoon Bruno appeared and soon
? afterward he sent for her. His face was redder than usual, and he had the
? pamphlet in his hand.
“這是你干的吧凡橱？”
“Was it you?”
“不是小作。”
“No.”
“告訴我實(shí)話稼钩，莉娜顾稀！外面已經(jīng)有太多人在制造混亂，你也摻和進(jìn)去了嗎坝撑？”
“Tell me the truth, Lina: there are
? already too many people out there making trouble, you’ve joined them?”
“我跟你說了静秆，不是我⊙怖睿”
“I told you no.”
“呵抚笔，你沒有？我們這里沒有任何人有這本事击儡，也沒有這么厚的臉皮塔沃，想出這些謊言⊙舻”
“No, eh? There is no one here, however,
? who has the ability and the impudence to make up all these lies.”
“可能是某個(gè)職員說的蛀柴。”
“It must have been one of the office
? workers.”
“職員就更不可能了矫夯「爰玻”
“The office workers least of all.”
“你想讓我怎么辦？鳥兒要唱歌训貌，難道你讓它們閉嘴制肮？大家都說是你冒窍。”
“Then what do you want from me, little
? birds sing, get mad at them.”
他嘆了一口氣豺鼻，好像真的很確信是她干的综液。他說：
He snorted, he seemed truly strained. He
? said:
“我給了你一份工作，你注冊(cè)加入工會(huì)儒飒，我什么都沒說谬莹。如果是我父親的話，他一定會(huì)一腳把你踢出去桩了。好吧附帽，在風(fēng)干室里，我做了一件蠢事井誉，但我向你道歉了蕉扮，你不能說我強(qiáng)迫了你。你現(xiàn)在為什么要說這些颗圣？你在報(bào)復(fù)嗎喳钟？你抹黑我的工廠，你白紙黑字欠啤，說我把女工帶到風(fēng)干室荚藻，你瘋了嗎？我和那些女工嗎洁段？我真后悔幫了你应狱。”
“I gave you a job. I said nothing when
? you joined the union, my father would have kicked you out. All right, I did
? something foolish, there in the drying room, but I apologized, you can’t say
? I persecuted you. And you, what do you do, you take revenge by casting a bad
? light on my factory and setting it down in black and white that I take my
? women workers into the drying room? For chrissake, when? Me, the workers, are
? you mad? You’re making me regret the favor I did you.”
“幫我祠丝？我每天累死累活疾呻，你就給我那么點(diǎn)錢。與其說你幫我写半，不如說我?guī)湍惆砂段稀！?/p>
“The favor? I work hard and you pay me a
? few cents. It’s more the favor I do you than what you do for me.”
“你看到了嗎叠蝇？你和那幫混蛋說話的語氣一模一樣璃岳，這些東西是你寫的，你就承認(rèn)了吧悔捶×蹇叮”
“You see? You talk like those shits. Have
? the courage to admit that you wrote this crap.”
“我什么都沒寫⊥筛茫”
“I didn’t write anything.”
布魯諾撇了撇嘴犁柜，看了一下眼前的冊(cè)子。她明白堂淡，他有些猶豫馋缅，不知道自己該怎么做：是用一種更強(qiáng)硬的語氣威脅她扒腕，解雇她，還是后退一步萤悴，搞清楚還有沒有其他類似這樣的行動(dòng)在籌備中瘾腰？她拿定了主意，低聲說——盡管有些不情愿稚疹，但她還是做出一副討好的表情居灯，強(qiáng)忍著他侵犯自己的那些鮮活記憶——她說了三句妥協(xié)的話：
Bruno twisted his mouth, he looked at the
? pages in front of him, and she understood that he was hesitating, he couldn’t
? make up his mind: move to a harsher tone, threaten her, fire her, retreat and
? try to find out if there were other initiatives like that being prepared? She
? made up her mind, and said in a low voice—reluctantly but with a small
? charming expression that clashed with the memory of his violence, still vivid
? in her body—three conciliatory phrases:
“你要相信我祭务。我家里有小孩内狗。這事兒真不是我做的∫遄叮”
“Trust me, I have a small child, I
? honestly didn’t do this thing.”
他點(diǎn)了點(diǎn)頭柳沙，有些不悅地嘟囔了一句：“你要逼我做出什么事，你知道嗎拌倍？”
He nodded yes, but he also muttered,
? unhappily: “You know what you’re forcing me to do?”
“不赂鲤，我不想知道≈簦”
“No, and I don’t want to know.”
“我還是要告訴你数初。假如是你的朋友干的，你要告訴他們：如果他們要敢再來工廠前搗亂梗顺，我就會(huì)打得他們不想再來泡孩。至于你，你要小心一下：你要再扯的話寺谤，繩子會(huì)斷的仑鸥。”
“I’ll tell you just the same. If those
? are your friends, warn them: as soon as they come back and make a scene out
? front here, I’ll have them beaten to a pulp. As for you, be careful: stretch
? the cord too far and it will snap.”
但那一天沒有就此結(jié)束变屁，在出門的時(shí)候眼俊，當(dāng)莉拉經(jīng)過崗?fù)ぃ瑘?bào)警器亮了粟关。還是老規(guī)矩——每天門衛(wèi)都會(huì)選三四個(gè)犧牲品疮胖，那些害羞的姑娘，會(huì)垂著眼睛讓他摸闷板，那些婆娘們會(huì)笑著說：“快點(diǎn)澎灸，想摸就摸，我要回去煮飯蛔垢』骱ⅲ”這次菲利普攔住了莉拉，天氣非常冷鹏漆，風(fēng)很大巩梢，門衛(wèi)從小房子里出來了创泄。莉拉渾身發(fā)抖，她說：
But the day didn’t end there. On the way? out, when Lila passed, the red light of the partial went on. It was the usual? ritual: every day the guard cheerfully chose three or four victims, the shy? girls, eyes lowered, let him feel them up, the savvy older women laughed,? saying: Filì, if you have to touch go on, but hurry up, I’ve got to go make? dinner. This time, Filippo stopped only Lila. It was cold, a strong wind was? blowing. The guard came out of his booth. Lila shivered, she said:?
“假如你敢碰我一根指頭括蝠，要么我會(huì)親手干掉你鞠抑，要么我讓人干掉你〖删”
“If you so much as brush me, by God I’ll
? murder you or have you murdered.”
菲利普臉色陰沉搁拙，他指了指崗?fù)づ赃叺囊粡堊雷樱鞘且恢狈旁谀莾旱摹?/p>
Filippo, grim, pointed to a small café
? table that was always next to the booth.
“你把口袋里的東西拿出來法绵，放在這上面箕速。”
“Empty your pockets one at a time, put
? the stuff there.”
莉拉的口袋里有一根新鮮的香腸朋譬，她觸摸到腸衣里軟乎乎的肉盐茎。她把香腸拿了出來，忽然笑了起來說：“你們?nèi)枪肥横阌銈兯腥硕际且宦坟浬帜！?/p>
Lila found a fresh sausage in her coat,
? with disgust she felt the soft meat inside the casing. She pulled it out and
? burst into laughter, saying, “What shits you people are, all of you.”
