很喜歡G每次都說(shuō)six wonderful days, wonderful Dhamma！好像我們是世界上最幸運(yùn)的人 like we are the most lucky person! 如果一切運(yùn)作當(dāng)然就是了If it works we are.
Still woke up at 1.20,2.30,3.45am something it seems like always wake up early during vipa.
如果我們能夠真正生活在moment碧注，而moment to moment一切都在變化嚣伐，那么就應(yīng)該沒有craving和aversion， 沒有clinging萍丐，拿吃東西來(lái)說(shuō)來(lái)說(shuō)很應(yīng)景轩端，哈，這是個(gè)實(shí)情逝变。短暫的快樂非常不持續(xù)基茵，每天吃飯就是10分鐘，雖然想延長(zhǎng)壳影，但人生更多的時(shí)間是瑜伽拱层，冥想和其它事！
我很少有do nothing時(shí)候宴咧，幾乎沒有根灯，昨天就是5-6一小時(shí)，剛要看書掺栅，因?yàn)閎ell響下去是snack bell烙肺，就在樓下椅子躺下來(lái)看茂密的樹枝，遮蓋重重氧卧，有一種mini瓜果（后來(lái)媽發(fā)給我她的海南照片竟然知道這個(gè)叫蓮霧桃笙，很營(yíng)養(yǎng)，很多微量元素）平時(shí)竟然沒有留意到沙绝，棕櫚樹映襯在后方天際搏明，基本藍(lán)天，美麗平靜難得闪檬，就這樣45分鐘飛速流逝星著。
大廳里至少100多人，非常安靜粗悯，除了幾個(gè)一直咳嗽和怪聲虚循，打嗝反胃的，我已經(jīng)學(xué)會(huì)接受为黎，說(shuō)不定她們身體不好邮丰；但一切井然有序，中心里人住的密度很高但感受還不多铭乾；經(jīng)營(yíng)vipa是個(gè)學(xué)問(wèn)剪廉，絕對(duì)不是我的夢(mèng)想，我的理想是如何改造和利用好wonderful dhamma炕檩，幫助更多人斗蒋。
頭腦想法Mental最重要，vipa含義是觀察observe笛质，observe而沒有偏見泉沾，多么不容易，雖然此次感受提高很多妇押，但感受和心智sensation跷究，mind不夠sharp，看來(lái)頭腦還是不犀利brain sharp is not enough.
Enjoy!
12.30
今天第一次午餐咀嚼24次敲霍，所以多了5分鐘12.26開始瑜伽俊马，之前都是12.21pm，結(jié)束竟然時(shí)間一樣肩杈；早餐后瑜伽是6.50到7.30am柴我。
關(guān)于sensation，說(shuō)是一切都在變化扩然，但我的sensation基本很麻木艘儒，靠呼吸帶動(dòng)，所以每次感覺發(fā)熱身體都是一樣的啊夫偶，G說(shuō)感受chnage界睁，哪里有change；也許可以理解為每一刻都是變化索守，都不一樣晕窑，但感官而言區(qū)別不大，還是mind不夠sharp卵佛。
今天都是head to feet杨赤，上到下，沒有花樣截汪，我感覺不錯(cuò)疾牲，尤其是珍惜這個(gè)難得時(shí)刻，過(guò)了本周可要工作了衙解，其實(shí)工作我也ok阳柔，就是受不了暴飲暴食。vipa是去除所有deep habit pattern in mind對(duì)于我來(lái)說(shuō)去除了喝酒蚓峦，雖然有社交缺失但不是啥大不了的代價(jià)舌剂。
今天想到X和S济锄，其實(shí)感官都是一想到直接感覺不舒服，我的第六感還是強(qiáng)的霍转，說(shuō)的是平時(shí)荐绝。
昨夜夢(mèng)到Hang，介紹他給一個(gè)女士避消，結(jié)果女士聽說(shuō)我在DSM工作想要approach他們低滩，我第一反應(yīng)就是還有誰(shuí)corporate strategy我認(rèn)識(shí)，馬上提醒自己沒有必要幫忙岩喷，就是做好人的潛意識(shí)subconscious恕沫，其實(shí)是一種不自信，希望被人喜歡纱意。
慢慢的修行是正事婶溯，工作是檢驗(yàn)修行的工具，也會(huì)想到很多次妇穴，但都o(jì)k爬虱，vipa prepare準(zhǔn)備好我接受一切后果，盡力做對(duì)的事腾它。
其實(shí)浮現(xiàn)的很多高中跑筝，過(guò)去事情，我發(fā)現(xiàn)自己痛點(diǎn)不多瞒滴，雖然說(shuō)過(guò)快樂不多曲梗，總是在追尋什么，但也沒啥致命痛苦的妓忍，都想得挺通的虏两。
在這里反復(fù)反復(fù)冥想，為了去除業(yè)力和痛苦緣由get rid of karmas and suffering cause, 但確實(shí)做多了也不合適世剖，目前認(rèn)為自己糾正一些錯(cuò)誤定罢，每年一次就ok，平時(shí)堅(jiān)持旁瘫，可以我堅(jiān)持了幾個(gè)月祖凫，為啥也沒sensation更多呢，要問(wèn)一下P酬凳。
每次cell結(jié)束倒立很爽惠况，還有就是喚醒能量，這兩個(gè)對(duì)我很有幫助宁仔。
想到團(tuán)隊(duì)很多稠屠，現(xiàn)在團(tuán)隊(duì)構(gòu)成很不錯(cuò)，這不挺享受的嗎！
4.43pm
漸入佳境权埠，甚至計(jì)劃12月份是否去sri lanka或不丹內(nèi)觀榨了，然后想到今年可能變化多多，不過(guò)不應(yīng)該影響我該做的事情：內(nèi)觀攘蔽。
5.05pm
很分心阻逮，感受和思路同時(shí)進(jìn)行，還是頭腦不夠犀利秩彤，需要老師幫助。A lot of distractions,since sensation and thought seem not in conflict,which I am sure it is not good to sharpen the Brain,need ask teacher.
新的一面開啟Anyhow today it is like some things opening up in the thought of business,why not going with Weikang to be public together;or I should be towards a professor like Winter,it seems both ways are possible.
下午比上午挑戰(zhàn)事哭，上午很忙綠漫雷，每個(gè)事情back to back，下午就是cell可以有意思一些鳍咱，一個(gè)小時(shí)不動(dòng)冥想也可以接受降盹。Afternoon is tough one since morning u got a lot of things to expect: breakfast,lunch even both are 10 minutes,then ashtanga 1 and 2,busy. But afternoon is hard,today it is not bad with two parts in cell and one hour without movement is durable.
I think some 惡勢(shì)力在抬頭，我已經(jīng)以拔干不凈的思維為基礎(chǔ)谤辜，突然很多工作上需要做的事情出現(xiàn)蓄坏，其實(shí)應(yīng)該慢慢淡忘啊丑念；人事涡戳，出路等等。原來(lái)我并不是要做J而是winter脯倚！
身體基本恢復(fù)到ok狀態(tài)渔彰，沒啥秘訣就是不吃啊，過(guò)午不食這有多難推正，在這里一點(diǎn)不難恍涂，回到上海很難。中午土豆泥還有白菜和豆腐皮植榕，都不錯(cuò)再沧，這里伙食確實(shí)比印度好。
會(huì)想到工作中面臨很多事尊残，就是心態(tài)很平和炒瘸，對(duì)啥都沒有很大期望值，實(shí)現(xiàn)很好夜郁，不實(shí)現(xiàn)也不失望什燕，所以說(shuō)craving如果是fame更大影響，這毛病好像被治的差不多了竞端，愛嗎屎即，原來(lái)是這個(gè)循環(huán)！這是我最大craving，還不是花生技俐！
8.15
this is most important time for learning: misery-sensation-craving/clinging-6 senses-mind and matter- consciousness - sankaras
If we can get sensation equanimous we can cut the roof of? sankaras which means misery
I am miserable all the time, repeating the same mistake in life no matter wanting, craving and eating; do I want to go back to the same life and same pattern and same habit, no.
Goenkaji is so lovely and I just want to hug him,when I see his face and body(normally I do not like fat people)just like a buddha and first night I dreamed about him and now I just love him,he makes me feel peaceful this is so called real guru,not excepting u only with his charisma like S
This is the moment,this is the chest,this is the feeling,this is me exciting in this world,that is how I felt during the past one hour sitting.
Nun is picking up fruits,girl is asking for banana,they are real hungry I am not.
Looking at the trees during the break time,I see squirrel looking at me,so small comparing with New York,how is their life like? Is it luckier be in the center of Vipa. I see eagle and many birds singing,this is the best part of the surroundings. I think I like this center even better,although my room is not that great,but I manage the routine well and now it is becoming nicer.
I should not expect this 5 days pass sooner,that is the same misery right,I look forward to its coming,count down on it then when I am in it I want it over sooner,how miserable is this,this is my life,admit it and it is not that great. I try to see it positively but it is not. I am in this cycle of continuing searching,when Patrick said so I was not that pleased but it made me think;now I now he is right,I am constantly searching for something I do not have.
I should get this book or video 4,5,which are so good. Tks Goenkaji,I am blessed here to hear this finally I got the logic!!!
以上是晚上回來(lái)性情所致即興發(fā)揮乘陪，就留它原來(lái)面目吧，相逢有緣人雕擂！
今天一大早反復(fù)聽一行禪師“佛陀傳”一段話：降伏欲念啡邑，修行觀想死尸，降伏貪欲井赌，修行無(wú)常谤逼；降伏散落，修行觀想氣息的呼吸仇穗，降伏嗔怒流部，修行慈悲！這個(gè)每天小事情做起很有效啊纹坐，但某一個(gè)欲望升起枝冀，就想到即使?jié)M足也是短暫，但后果是長(zhǎng)期的耘子，所以需要管理欲望果漾，從每一天小事做起！
