But I was looking for someone else.The last time I had seen him砚尽，on the night of the fire施无，he had held my hands，told me I had saved his life必孤，and looked at me as if he loved me How close we had been then!But now猾骡，he entered the room without even looking at me，and took a seat with the ladies.I could not stop looking at him rather like a thirsty man who knows the water is poisoned but cannot resist drinking.I had never intended to love him.I had tried hard to destroy all feelings of love for him，but now that I saw him again兴想，I could not stop myself loving him.I compared him to the other gentlemen present.They were all fine幢哨，handsome men，but they did not have his power襟企，his character嘱么，his strength，or indeed his deep laugh or his gentle smile.I felt that he and I were the same sort of person顽悼，that there was something in my brain and heart曼振，in my blood and bone，that connected me to him for ever. And although I knew I must hide my feelings蔚龙，must never allow myself to hope冰评，I also knew that while there was breath in my body，I would always love him.
但我在尋找另外的人木羹。我最后一次見到他甲雅，在火災(zāi)的夜晚，他握著我的手坑填，告訴我抛人，我救了他的命，看著我脐瑰，好像他愛著我妖枚，那時我們多么的親密！但是現(xiàn)在苍在，他走進房間绝页，沒看我一眼，和其他女士們坐在一起寂恬。我無法停止看他续誉，就像一個口渴的人，知道水有毒初肉，但又忍不住去喝膝藕。我從來沒有想過要愛他导狡，我曾努力的去毀掉對他所有愛的感覺背苦，但現(xiàn)在我再見到他禀忆，無法停止的愛他俺陋。我把他和其他在場的紳士們比較骄噪。他們都很好莽鸿，英俊山憨，但是他們沒有他的能力焦蘑，沒有他的性格盯拱，他的毅力，沒有他低沉的笑聲和溫柔的微笑。我覺得他和我是同一類人狡逢，有些東西深入腦海宁舰，埋入內(nèi)心，融入骨血奢浑，它們相互聯(lián)系讓我永遠愛他蛮艰。雖然我知道我必須隱藏我的感情，決不能讓自己有希望雀彼，但我也知道壤蚜，只要我一息尚存，我會永遠愛他徊哑。
