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許生聞?dòng)嵢绯援?dāng)頭一棒，人也懞了，聲也啞了赁濒，跌跌撞撞跑到家轨奄。父親已咽了氣，母親哭得淚人似的拒炎，兩個(gè)小侄子也在一旁哇哇大哭挪拟。床前爐子里燃著紙錢(qián)，床頭香爐香煙繚繞击你，豆大燈光忽明忽暗玉组，看去實(shí)在令人悲傷。許生撲到床上丁侄，大叫了幾聲“爹”惯雳，見(jiàn)氣也沒(méi)了，手也冷了绒障，便雙膝跪了下去。想起父親一生的奮斗捍歪，想起父親對(duì)自己的教養(yǎng)户辱，覺(jué)得有許多對(duì)不住父親的地方，就象萬(wàn)刀鉆心糙臼，眼淚不禁簌簌滾落下來(lái)庐镐。
母親含著淚，給子孫后輩掛了麻孝变逃，對(duì)許生說(shuō)：“也別哭了必逆，快給你爹凈了身，換上壽衣吧揽乱，再過(guò)些時(shí)候手腳就僵硬了名眉。”
在抹身的時(shí)候凰棉，許生看父親全身上下只剩一把骨頭损拢，一張巴巴皺皺的皮松松裹著，眼淚又涌了出來(lái)撒犀。想：“這或許就是人一生的意義和價(jià)值了福压。人從娘肚子里溜出來(lái)，靠了父母的血汗或舞，長(zhǎng)成這副骨架荆姆，然后靠了這副骨架去奮斗，去吃苦映凳，又用血汗去哺育別的一些骨架胆筒，再讓它們?nèi)^斗，去吃苦诈豌。這之中始終存在一種祈盼腐泻，盼望它們會(huì)比自己過(guò)得好决乎。這樣一代代哺育下去，盼望下去派桩，結(jié)果都載著這身骨架构诚，或老死床簀上，或鏖戰(zhàn)血泊里铆惑，或病倒在街頭范嘱。這就構(gòu)成了人生的全部。如果上天知道這情形员魏，會(huì)作何遐想呢丑蛤？……”
母親知道兒子的意思，泣淚道：“你爹這輩子算是對(duì)得住你們子孫了撕阎，為了你們受裹，吃進(jìn)嘴里的巴不得吐出來(lái)，穿在身上的巴不得剝下來(lái)虏束，一年到頭哪里有個(gè)空閑日子棉饶。說(shuō)只要你們有出息，自己就是累死镇匀、苦死也值得照藻。年老了又受幾個(gè)孫子的拖累，一天幾兩米也不能全下肚子汗侵，說(shuō)他們正是長(zhǎng)身體的時(shí)候……”母親嚎啕大哭起來(lái)幸缕，又哽咽著囑咐老伴，“許生他爹晰韵，許生為你抹身子发乔、換衣服，你手腳松軟一些吧雪猪。這身衣服在生你舍不得穿列疗，現(xiàn)在你就穿了去做客吧。你一生也窮怕了浪蹂，到那邊別忘了投個(gè)有吃有穿的人家抵栈。你一生修善積德，疼愛(ài)子孫坤次，為子孫受盡了苦古劲，操碎了心，到那邊缰猴，你要時(shí)時(shí)刻刻照看好一家大小产艾，保佑兒孫萬(wàn)事順心，歲歲平安……”話到傷心處又嗚嗚哭了起來(lái)。
父親歿后闷堡，很有些親戚陸續(xù)前來(lái)燒香祭奠隘膘。堂兄報(bào)喪時(shí)一面也就借糧，他們雖然借不出杠览，但卻把自己的口糧帶了來(lái)弯菊，有的一斤的，有的兩斤的踱阿，說(shuō)本來(lái)這點(diǎn)米拿不出手管钳，但到月尾，實(shí)在沒(méi)有辦法软舌。許生打開(kāi)米缸一看才漆，也只剩幾把米，急得象熱鍋上的螞蟻佛点。便去找隊(duì)長(zhǎng)通融醇滥，要求提前發(fā)放下月口糧。隊(duì)長(zhǎng)十分同情超营，說(shuō)：“你便寫(xiě)個(gè)報(bào)告鸳玩，我代你拿到大隊(duì)去批，然后把糧送到你家里去糟描。不過(guò)這點(diǎn)糧也派不上多少用場(chǎng)怀喉，你也去你單位想想法子吧书妻〈欤”
按照當(dāng)時(shí)規(guī)定，學(xué)校職工家庭發(fā)生什么天災(zāi)人禍躲履、生老病死见间，上面會(huì)給一定的困難補(bǔ)助。許生回到家里又寫(xiě)了幾個(gè)報(bào)告工猜，分別向?qū)W校米诉、糧站申請(qǐng)錢(qián)糧。報(bào)告提呈上去審批篷帅，校長(zhǎng)看也不看史侣，板著臉冷冷道：“放著吧，等你把與孟若芬的問(wèn)題交待清楚以后再說(shuō)吧魏身！”
許生萬(wàn)萬(wàn)沒(méi)有料到校長(zhǎng)會(huì)在這樣的時(shí)候給人扎刀子惊橱，也不哼聲，知道理論也無(wú)益箭昵，拿起報(bào)告就走税朴。
“你往哪去？”校長(zhǎng)十分意外。
“到縣里找局長(zhǎng)正林∨菀唬”
“找他干什么？”
“禿子頭上的虱子明擺著觅廓，人死在床板上鼻忠，耽擱不起，看局里有無(wú)法子哪亿≈嗨福”
校長(zhǎng)聽(tīng)說(shuō)要找局長(zhǎng)，暗暗吃了一驚蝇棉，知道自己分明是給人小鞋穿讨阻，道理搬不上桌面，如果在局里把情況傳揚(yáng)開(kāi)去篡殷，反壞了自己名聲钝吮，便變過(guò)臉色來(lái)，說(shuō)：“你也不用往局里跑板辽。這樣告訴你吧奇瘦，即使局長(zhǎng)同意，也得我簽字蓋章劲弦。我也知道你急用錢(qián)耳标，這樣吧，這里先給你批了邑跪，你的問(wèn)題待以后再處吧次坡。”便在幾個(gè)報(bào)告上歪歪斜斜地寫(xiě)了意見(jiàn)画畅。許生拿了報(bào)告又東奔西顛地找了半天人砸琅，總算湊得人民幣五十元，大米指標(biāo)三十斤轴踱，食油二斤症脂。又找?guī)讉€(gè)老師幫忙借教工互儲(chǔ)金。開(kāi)始也順利淫僻，到后來(lái)校長(zhǎng)也就警惕起來(lái)诱篷，執(zhí)意不肯了。說(shuō)：“這就奇怪了雳灵，這些天怎么大家的困難一齊擠了來(lái)棕所，怕是受人利用吧？”折騰半天细办，待借款人好話說(shuō)盡橙凳，保證再三蕾殴，校長(zhǎng)才在猶豫中慢慢端起筆來(lái)，警告說(shuō)：“我丑話說(shuō)在前頭岛啸，要是真的受人利用钓觉，讓我查出來(lái)，別說(shuō)我下手無(wú)情……”
出殯那天早上坚踩，天空陰沉得可怕荡灾，象是要下大雨的樣子；寒鴉拖著長(zhǎng)音一遍又一遍地從頭頂上掠過(guò)瞬铸。靈柩停放在門(mén)前的小道上批幌，柩頭祭桌上，白燭流了一身的淚嗓节，燭光在風(fēng)里搖搖曳曳荧缘；頭邊飯堆得結(jié)實(shí)高聳，這是母親的特別交代拦宣，說(shuō)老頭子一生饞飯截粗，要讓他吃飽了上路；祭肉便是許生托人買的那塊鸵隧，如今和著幾條薄皮魚(yú)、一只雄雞豆瘫，一并作了三牲。老人生前口無(wú)福祿育灸，現(xiàn)在讓他好好享用，也不枉來(lái)人世一遭略步。母親迎著寒風(fēng)趴在棺材頭上定页，嗚嗚咽咽，哭訴老伴生前的許多苦處典徊，又千叮嚀萬(wàn)囑咐杭煎，交待西歸以后要保護(hù)子孫卒落。旁邊四鄰八舍看熱鬧的人一邊勸，一邊也禁不住流出許多眼淚也切。
屋里正在用飯雷恃。廳堂上首兩桌坐著抬柩的人。許生戴著全孝倒槐，拖著兩個(gè)小侄子逐桌跪拜讨越，盡孝子之道匾二。跪拜完畢肥橙，許生淚流滿面說(shuō)：“多虧大家?guī)兔α擞喾穑以S生也算是個(gè)不肖之子滨嘱，父親殯葬還要大家?guī)ЪZ食太雨，飯也供不上一餐，這是沒(méi)有過(guò)的事吩翻，我也羞愧難當(dāng)狭瞎。大家的好意和恩情我許生會(huì)銘記在心搏予，有朝一日情況好了雪侥，我當(dāng)十倍奉還。如果我手上辦不到锌妻，我的兩個(gè)侄子也理當(dāng)負(fù)起父輩的責(zé)任……”話到此處再也說(shuō)不下去仿粹，一頭倒拜下去，不禁嗚嗚哭出聲來(lái)擎浴。
“這是哪里的話贮预，”隊(duì)長(zhǎng)急忙走下桌來(lái)契讲，扶起許生捡偏，說(shuō)银伟，“你也不必太自責(zé)了，誰(shuí)家還沒(méi)個(gè)困難的時(shí)候傅物。親幫親鄰幫鄰嘛董饰。糧食你也不必提償還的事卒暂，別說(shuō)半斤一斤娄帖，再多一些又怎樣呢近速！”
“是呀，償還的事說(shuō)也說(shuō)不得永淌，這是什么時(shí)候，要是頭個(gè)三五年干厚，誰(shuí)家不多個(gè)千把八百，婚喪吉難所坯，誰(shuí)還圖個(gè)帶糧芹助？”
“那還用說(shuō)状土，只是愁沒(méi)那么大的肚子伺糠⊙低埃”
“別提那個(gè)時(shí)候的事了舵揭，那是皇帝的女兒給做了老婆，現(xiàn)在還想呀……”
隊(duì)長(zhǎng)看大家七嘴八舌扯得沒(méi)遮沒(méi)攔了毒租，阻止說(shuō)：“好了墅垮，不說(shuō)這個(gè)了算色，我知道烏鴉嘴不會(huì)有好話螟够，不要無(wú)事惹事自找麻煩妓笙∧”
“惹事又怎么樣辈赋？渴了口焦膏燕，餓了心焦坝辫，說(shuō)句實(shí)心話也怕這怕那近忙，我看你也是尿變的……”
許生草草辦完喪事智润，已近期末做鹰。學(xué)校一邊準(zhǔn)備復(fù)習(xí)考試钾麸，一邊搞教師年終鑒定饭尝。鑒定之前自然先造聲勢(shì)，貼標(biāo)語(yǔ)实撒，掛橫幅知态，斗右派负敏；然后發(fā)動(dòng)寫(xiě)大字報(bào)其做，逐個(gè)進(jìn)行梳理：無(wú)問(wèn)題或少問(wèn)題的先上赁还，好讓他們放下包袱艘策，輕裝上陣；最后集中火力梭域，窮追猛打。孟若芬看許生的大字報(bào)愈來(lái)愈多璧坟，條條似鋼刀赎懦，張張如排炮励两，心里終日顫顫的当悔，十分惶恐盲憎。悄悄對(duì)許生說(shuō)：“看來(lái)這次是不會(huì)放過(guò)你了饼疙，你也當(dāng)作好思想準(zhǔn)備∑粱”許生說(shuō)：“什么準(zhǔn)備肾请？欄里的豬铛铁，砧上的肉饵逐，任其處置罷了彪标。”
這一天終究到來(lái)当船。校長(zhǎng)倒顯得輕松得意了德频。宣布說(shuō)：“今天繼續(xù)鑒定壹置。大家都是了解的钞护，也不用來(lái)個(gè)先自鑒后民鑒的規(guī)矩难咕，不過(guò)有一點(diǎn)要注意距辆，那就是根據(jù)‘言者無(wú)罪挑格，聞?wù)咦憬洹脑瓌t辦事漂彤，做到‘知無(wú)不言挫望，言無(wú)不盡’媳板。大家好比是醫(yī)生蛉幸，醫(yī)生就應(yīng)當(dāng)治病救人奕纫，對(duì)病人負(fù)責(zé)匹层；作為病人也就要坦誠(chéng)，配合醫(yī)生撑柔，切不可諱疾忌醫(yī)铅忿，那是沒(méi)有好處的辆沦。要相信醫(yī)生肢扯，相信群眾蔚晨，相信大家的眼力铭腕。前面已有先例累舷，我們不搞按領(lǐng)導(dǎo)意圖排名被盈，誰(shuí)來(lái)都行只怎，只要求目標(biāo)集中一些身堡，鑒一個(gè)是一個(gè)贴谎，不要東一榔頭西一棒的擅这。好了蕾哟，我就說(shuō)這么幾句谭确。誰(shuí)先發(fā)言……”
“我說(shuō)……”有幾個(gè)人差不多同時(shí)發(fā)出一個(gè)聲音逐哈，看去熱烈而有秩序昂秃。
校長(zhǎng)笑了笑肠骆，向旁邊一指：“好蚀腿，你先說(shuō)莉钙，話簡(jiǎn)單而明確些磁玉。”
一個(gè)長(zhǎng)得有點(diǎn)滑稽席赂、開(kāi)口便笑的人站了起來(lái)，臉朝天花板說(shuō)：“我問(wèn)你便监，夜里樓板顫顫地抖烧董，你在干什么呀逊移？”
“你在問(wèn)誰(shuí)呀胳泉？”校長(zhǎng)的臉陰沉下來(lái)扇商。
“問(wèn)誰(shuí)案铺，問(wèn)許生呀……”
“豈有此理控汉！人有名姓姑子，勺子有柄壁酬，你大概喝了懵懂湯了∠Ａ”大家哄地大笑起來(lái)颜武。校長(zhǎng)立刻制止鳞上，敲著桌面說(shuō)篙议，“嚴(yán)肅嚴(yán)肅鬼贱！接著來(lái)吧——”
“請(qǐng)問(wèn)許老師这难，聽(tīng)說(shuō)你深更半夜把女老師帶出去姻乓，這是為什么蹋岩？”一個(gè)瘦而高的老師說(shuō)星澳。
“今天是怎么了禁偎？”校長(zhǎng)生氣地站了起來(lái)腿堤，“你們用詞也當(dāng)有個(gè)分寸，什么‘請(qǐng)問(wèn)’如暖，什么‘聽(tīng)說(shuō)’笆檀，這是什么講究？是請(qǐng)客吃飯盒至？是女人繡花酗洒？這是治病救人，懂嗎樱衷？！當(dāng)針灸的針灸酒唉，當(dāng)開(kāi)刀的開(kāi)刀矩桂，躲躲閃閃這叫為病人負(fù)責(zé)嗎？我們共產(chǎn)黨人‘是’就‘是’痪伦，‘非’就‘非’侄榴，一針見(jiàn)血，毫不含糊网沾。這里我向許生提一點(diǎn)癞蚕，這一點(diǎn)我大字報(bào)也來(lái)不及寫(xiě)。你父親死時(shí)辉哥，你不是寫(xiě)了三個(gè)報(bào)告嗎桦山？一個(gè)錢(qián)，一個(gè)糧证薇，一個(gè)油度苔。我不明白，你為什么在申請(qǐng)錢(qián)的報(bào)告上寫(xiě)：‘家中一貧如洗浑度，為埋葬父親已經(jīng)到了要拍賣破爛的地步寇窑。’又在油的報(bào)告上寫(xiě)箩张，‘家里連照靈的油也沒(méi)有’甩骏。這是什么意思窗市？你在訴誰(shuí)的苦？社會(huì)主義在你心目中是怎樣的位置饮笛？你為什么對(duì)共產(chǎn)黨的領(lǐng)導(dǎo)這樣刻骨仇恨咨察？回答吧！”校長(zhǎng)威嚴(yán)地坐了下去福青。
“回答吧摄狱！”有幾個(gè)人幫著腔，聽(tīng)那聲音无午，好象里面就要冒出火花媒役。
許生站了起來(lái)，不緊不慢地說(shuō)：“校長(zhǎng)的開(kāi)場(chǎng)白說(shuō)得清楚宪迟，大家是醫(yī)生酣衷，為的是治病救人。既然這樣次泽，我作為一個(gè)病人也請(qǐng)?jiān)试S說(shuō)說(shuō)病情穿仪。我沒(méi)有象各位說(shuō)的那些病。在我心目中意荤，共產(chǎn)黨賽過(guò)爹娘啊片，共產(chǎn)主義是我的理想。至于我說(shuō)了什么做了什么袭异，事實(shí)自然不容我狡辯钠龙。我現(xiàn)在唯一的要求是請(qǐng)校長(zhǎng)將我的那三個(gè)報(bào)告拿出來(lái)，放在光天之下御铃，讓大家審視審視。我堅(jiān)信黨的實(shí)事求是精神沈矿∩险妫”
校長(zhǎng)的臉變換著色彩，很有點(diǎn)如坐針氈的樣子羹膳。
“我看你就是狡賴睡互。如此說(shuō)來(lái)，是校長(zhǎng)冤枉你了陵像？就珠！”那張滑稽臉現(xiàn)在倒不滑稽了，眼睛睜得圓圓的醒颖，里面好象要?dú)⒊鰞砂训秮?lái)妻怎。
“有則改之、無(wú)則加勉嘛泞歉，難道你是個(gè)什么缺點(diǎn)什么錯(cuò)誤都沒(méi)有的完人逼侦？”那個(gè)高而瘦的聲音有點(diǎn)發(fā)澀匿辩。
校長(zhǎng)的意圖沒(méi)有得逞，十分惱火榛丢。既然有人幫腔铲球，便趁勢(shì)一拍桌子道：“許生是個(gè)老運(yùn)動(dòng)員，老扎得很晰赞，態(tài)度極為惡劣稼病。他是不見(jiàn)棺材不流淚的，大家也不用多費(fèi)口舌掖鱼。這樣吧溯饵，關(guān)于對(duì)許生的鑒定今晚就進(jìn)行到這里。許生別自鳴得意打錯(cuò)算盤(pán)锨用，頑固到底是沒(méi)有好處的》峥現(xiàn)在你可以離開(kāi)會(huì)場(chǎng)了≡鲇担”
許生離開(kāi)會(huì)場(chǎng)之后啄巧，矛頭便對(duì)準(zhǔn)了孟若芬。校長(zhǎng)的意思倒不是想整治她——一個(gè)代課的人叫滾就得滾掌栅，算什么秩仆？——只是想從她的身上打開(kāi)一個(gè)缺口，從中挖出許生的一些東西來(lái)猾封。哪怕是尋得個(gè)蛛絲馬跡也好澄耍。便說(shuō)：“大家看清楚了吧，許生是個(gè)怎樣的人也不用我來(lái)細(xì)說(shuō)晌缘，大家會(huì)愈來(lái)愈看得清楚齐莲。很明顯，要想他老老實(shí)實(shí)接受問(wèn)題交代問(wèn)題是不可能的磷箕，我們要丟掉幻想选酗；不過(guò)不要緊，民主意見(jiàn)不在乎他個(gè)人態(tài)度怎么樣岳枷。他惡劣芒填，他對(duì)抗，我們就怕了空繁？就放過(guò)他啦殿衰？不！這樣的人我見(jiàn)多了盛泡。他表面強(qiáng)硬闷祥，內(nèi)心空虛。他的問(wèn)題很多饭于，政治的蜀踏，思想的维蒙，工作的，思想的果覆，作風(fēng)的颅痊，有的是觀點(diǎn)、立場(chǎng)問(wèn)題局待。大家決不可掉以輕心斑响。奇怪的是有些人分明對(duì)許生十分了解，為什么不肯站出來(lái)說(shuō)幾句話钳榨，腳根站到那方面去了舰罚？！……”
校長(zhǎng)這一導(dǎo)向薛耻，大家十分明白营罢。……
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When Xu Sheng heard the news, he was stunned and dumb. He stumbled home. The father had swallowed his anger, the mother cried like tears, and the two little nephews were crying. The paper money is burning in the stove in front of the bed, the incense stove at the head of the bed is filled with cigarettes, and the bean light is bright and dark. It looks really sad. Xu Sheng threw himself on the bed and shouted "Dad". Seeing that his breath was gone and his hands were cold, he knelt down on his knees. When I think of my father's life's struggle and his upbringing, I feel that there are many places I can't feel sorry for my father, just like ten thousand knives pierce my heart, and tears can't help rolling down.
With tears in her eyes, her mother hung Ma Xiao for her children and grandchildren and said to Xu Sheng, "don't cry, either. Clean your father and put on his shroud. After a while, his hands and feet will be stiff."
While wiping his body, Xu Sheng saw that there was only a handful of bones left in his father's whole body. A wrinkled skin was wrapped loosely, and tears welled up again. Think: "This may be the meaning and value of a person's life. People slip out of their mother's belly and grow into this skeleton by relying on the blood and sweat of their parents. Then they rely on this skeleton to struggle and endure hardship. They use their blood and sweat to feed other skeletons, and then let them struggle and endure hardship. There is always a kind of hope that they will live better than themselves. If they feed and hope for this from generation to generation, they will carry this skeleton, Or die on the bed, or fight in a pool of blood, or fall ill in the street. This constitutes the whole of life. If God knew this, what would he do?... "
The mother knew what her son meant, "Your father is right for your children and grandchildren in his life. For you, he wants to spit what he eats in his mouth and peel what he wears off. There is no free day all year round. He said that as long as you are promising, you are worth dying of fatigue and hardship. When you are old and dragged down by several grandchildren, you can't eat all your stomach for several meters a day, saying that they are just the time to grow up..." his mother cried, He choked and told his wife, "Xu Sheng is his father. Xu Sheng wipes your body and changes clothes for you. Your hands and feet should be soft. You can't bear to wear these clothes when you're alive. Now you can wear them as a guest. You've been poor and afraid all your life. Don't forget to join a family where you can eat and wear. You've cultivated virtue all your life, loved your children and grandchildren, suffered a lot for your children and grandchildren, and broke your heart. When you go there, you should take care of the size of the family all the time, and protect your children and grandchildren from everything and peace all the year round..." When the words reached the sad place, he sobbed again.
After his father died, many relatives came to burn incense in succession. When the cousin reported the funeral, they borrowed food. Although they couldn't borrow it, they brought their own rations, some one kilogram and some two kilos. They said they couldn't take this rice, but there was no way to do it at the end of the month. When Xu Sheng opened the rice jar, there were only a few handfuls of rice left. He was as anxious as an ant on a hot pot. He went to the captain for accommodation and asked for the distribution of next month's rations in advance. The captain was very sympathetic and said, "write a report and I'll get it to the brigade for you, and then send the grain to your home. However, this grain is not of much use. Go to your unit and find a way."
According to the regulations at that time, the staff and families of the school will be given certain difficulties and subsidies in case of natural and man-made disasters, birth, old age and death. When Xu Sheng returned home, he wrote several reports and applied for money and grain from the school and grain station. When the report was submitted for approval, the headmaster didn't look at it. He said coldly, "put it away until you explain your problems with Meng ruofen!"
Xu Sheng never expected that the headmaster would stab people at such a time without humming. Knowing that theory was useless, he picked up the report and left.
"Where are you going?" The headmaster was very surprised.
"Go to the county to find the director."
"What are you looking for him for?"
"The lice on the bald head are obvious. People die on the bed board and can't afford to delay. See if there is a way in the Bureau."
The headmaster was surprised when he heard that he was looking for the director. He knew that he was clearly giving people small shoes, and the truth could not be put on the table. If he spread the situation in the Bureau, it would damage his reputation. He turned his face and said, "you don't have to run to the Bureau. Let me tell you, even if the director agrees, I have to sign and seal. I also know that you are in urgent need of money. In this way, I'll give you approval first, and your problem will be dealt with later." He wrote his opinions askew on several reports. Xu Sheng took the report and ran around looking for people for a long time. Finally, he got 50 yuan, 30 kilograms of rice and 2 kilograms of cooking oil. He asked several teachers to help borrow the mutual savings of teaching staff. At first, it went well. Later, the headmaster became vigilant and refused. He said, "it's strange. How come everyone's difficulties are crowded together these days? I'm afraid they will be used by others?" After tossing around for a long time, after the borrower said all the good words and promised again and again, the headmaster slowly picked up his pen in hesitation and warned: "my ugly words are ahead. If they are really used, let me find out, don't say I'm ruthless..."
On the morning of the funeral, the sky was gloomy and terrible, as if it was going to rain heavily; The Jackdaw dragged a long sound over and over his head. The coffin was parked on the path in front of the door. On the coffin head sacrifice table, the white candle shed tears, and the candle light swayed in the wind; The rice piled up at the head was strong and towering, which was a special explanation from his mother. He said that the old man was greedy for food all his life and wanted to let him eat enough and go on the road; The sacrificial meat is the one that Xu Sheng entrusted to buy. Now it has been made into three animals together with several thin skinned fish and a rooster. The old man had no fortune before his death. Now let him enjoy it well. It's not worth a lifetime. Facing the cold wind, the mother lay on the head of the coffin, sobbing, crying about her wife's many hardships before her death, and told her to protect her children after returning to the West. The spectators nearby couldn't help crying while persuading them.
The house is having dinner. At the first two tables in the hall sat people carrying coffins. Wearing full filial piety, Xu Sheng dragged his two little nephews to kneel down table by table and did his best to be a filial son. After kneeling down, Xu Sheng burst into tears and said, "thanks to everyone's help, I Xu Sheng is also an unworthy son. My father has to bring food for everyone at the funeral, and I can't afford a meal. It's unprecedented, and I'm ashamed. I'll bear in mind your kindness and kindness. When things get better one day, I'll give it back ten times. If I can't do it, my two nephews should also take the responsibility of their parents..." At this point, I couldn't speak any more. I bowed down and couldn't help sobbing.
"Where is this?" the captain hurried down the table, picked up Xu Sheng and said, "you don't have to blame yourself. Who hasn't had a difficult time. Help your neighbors. You don't have to mention the repayment of grain. Don't mention half a kilo, what if there's more!"
"Yes, it's hard to say about the repayment. When is this? If there aren't more than one thousand eight hundred in the first three or five years, and it's difficult for weddings and funerals, who wants to bring food?"
"Needless to say, I'm just worried that I don't have such a big stomach."
"Don't mention what happened at that time. It was the emperor's daughter who became a wife. Now I still want to..."
The captain looked at everyone's gossip and stopped and said, "well, don't say this. I know crow's mouth won't have good words. Don't ask for trouble without trouble."
"What if you get into trouble? You're thirsty and hungry. You're afraid of this and that when you say a solid word. I think you're also pissed..."
Xu Sheng hastily finished the funeral and is nearing the end of the term. While preparing for the review examination, the school carries out the year-end appraisal of teachers. Before the appraisal, naturally build momentum, stick slogans, hang banners and fight the right; Then start writing big character newspapers and sort them out one by one: those who have no or few problems go first, so that they can put down their burden and go to battle light; Finally, concentrate the fire. Meng ruofen watched more and more of Xu Sheng's big character newspapers, with strips like steel knives and Zhang Zhang like firecrackers. Her heart trembled all day and was very frightened. Quietly said to Xu Sheng, "it seems that you will not be spared this time. You should also be well prepared." Xu Sheng said, "what preparation? The pigs in the fence and the meat on the anvil are just at their disposal."
This day will come eventually. The headmaster looked relaxed and proud. Announced: "Today, we will continue to appraise. We all understand this, and we don't need to follow the rule of self-examination before the people's examination. However, we should pay attention to one thing, that is, we should act according to the principle of" those who speak are innocent, and those who hear are full of caution ", and achieve the principle of" saying everything we know and saying everything we say ". We are like doctors. Medical students should treat and save people and be responsible to patients; as patients, we should be honest and cooperate with doctors, and we must not hide and avoid doctors, which is not good. We should be consistent with each other Believe in doctors, the masses and your eyesight. There are precedents ahead. We don't rank according to the intention of leaders. Anyone can come. We only need to focus on some goals, learn from one, and don't hammer one in the East and one in the West. Well, that's all I say. Who will speak first... "
"I said..." several people made a voice almost at the same time, which looked warm and orderly.
The headmaster smiled and pointed to the side, "OK, you say it first. Be simple and clear."
A funny man stood up and said to the ceiling, "I ask you, the floor trembles at night. What are you doing?"
"Who are you asking?" The headmaster's face darkened.
"Ask who, ask Xu Sheng..."
"That's unreasonable! People have names and spoons with handles. You may have drunk ignorant soup." Everyone roared with laughter. The headmaster stopped at once, knocked on the table and said, "serious! Come on -"
"Excuse me, Mr. Xu. I heard you took the female teacher out in the middle of the night. Why?" A thin and tall teacher said.
"What happened today?" The headmaster stood up angrily, "You should also have a sense of propriety in your use of words, such as" excuse me "and" I heard ". What's the stress? Is it a dinner treat? Is it a woman's embroidery? This is healing and saving people, okay?! when acupuncture and moxibustion is acupuncture and moxibustion, when the knife is open, dodging, is it responsible for the patient? Our Communists' yes' is' yes' and 'no' is' no ', which is straight to the point and unambiguous. Here I mention to Xu Sheng, and I'll give a big character newspaper on this There's no time to write. Didn't you write three reports when your father died? One money, one grain, one oil. I don't understand why you wrote in your application report: 'the family is as poor as a rag. It's time to auction rags for the burial of your father.' The oil report also said, "there is no oil for spiritual illumination at home.". What's the meaning of this? Who are you complaining about? What is the position of socialism in your mind? Why do you hate the leadership of the Communist Party so much? Answer! " The headmaster sat down with dignity.
"Answer!" A few people helped the chamber and listened to the sound as if sparks were about to appear inside.
Xu Sheng stood up, Take it easy to say: "The headmaster's opening remarks made it clear that everyone is a doctor in order to cure the disease and save people. In that case, as a patient, please allow me to talk about my illness. I don't have the diseases you said. In my mind, the Communist Party is better than my parents, and communism is my ideal. As for what I said and did, the facts naturally allow me no sophistry. My only request now is to ask the headmaster to take out my three reports and put them in the light Next, let's look at it. I firmly believe in the party's spirit of seeking truth from facts. "
The headmaster's face changed colors and looked a little like a needle on pins and needles.
"I think you are cunning. So, the headmaster wronged you?!" That funny face is not funny now. Its eyes are wide open. It seems that two knives are going to be killed in it.
"Change what you have and encourage what you don't have. Are you a perfect person without any shortcomings and mistakes?" The tall, thin voice was a little astringent.
The headmaster was very annoyed that his intention failed. Since someone helped, he patted the table and said, "Xu Sheng is an old athlete. He is very old and has a very bad attitude. He doesn't shed tears when he doesn't see the coffin, and we don't have to waste more words. Well, the appraisal of Xu Sheng will be here tonight. Don't be complacent. It's no good to be stubborn. Now you can leave the venue."
After Xu Sheng left the meeting, he aimed at Meng ruofen. The headmaster doesn't mean to punish her - what's a substitute who has to roll if he asks to roll—— I just want to open a gap in her body and dig out some things of Xu Sheng. Even if you find a clue. He said: "Let's see clearly. I don't need to elaborate on what kind of person Xu Sheng is. Everyone will see more and more clearly. Obviously, it's impossible for him to accept and explain problems honestly, and we have to lose our illusions; but it doesn't matter. Democratic opinions don't care about his personal attitude. He's bad, he confronts, we're afraid? Let him go? No! I've seen many such people. He's tough on the surface and empty in the heart. He has many problems, political, ideological, working, ideological and style, and some are views and positions. We must not take it lightly. It's strange that some people clearly know Xu Sheng very well. Why don't they stand up and say a few words and stand on that side?!... "
The headmaster's guidance is well understood
重點(diǎn)詞匯釋義
聞?dòng)峢ear the news
當(dāng)頭一棒a head-on blow; deal a direct blow at
跌跌撞撞dodder along; stagger along; stumbling along; totteringly
哇哇cry
紙錢(qián)paper made to resemble money and burned as an offering to the dead
香煙繚繞The smoke of incense rose in volutes; coiling incense smoke; Incense smoke curls up; The air was heavy with the aromatic perfumes which rose on all sides in spirals of smoke from censers
忽明忽暗flicker
自己的self
鉆心core-bit; web
簌簌rustle
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