2019.3.15 己亥二月初九 周五 晴
? ? ? But after three months I somehow came to see that Mac was right,that it was I,not he,who had the character disorder.My time was my responsibility.It was up to me and me alone to decide how I wanted to use and order my time.If I wanted to invest my time more heavily than my fellow residents in my work,then that was my choice,and the consequences of that choice were my responsibility.It might be painful fore me to watch my fellow residents leave their offices two or three hours before me,and it might be painful to listen to my wife's complaints that I was not devoting myself sufficiently to the family,but these pains were the consequence of a choice that I had made.If I did not want to suffer them,then I was free to choose not to work so hard and to structure my time differently.My woking hard was not a burden cast upon me by hardhearted fate or a hardhearted clinic director;it was the way I had chosen to live my life and order my priorities.As it happened,I chose not to change my life style.But with my change in attitude,my resentment of my fellow residents vanished.It simply no longer made any sense to resent them for having chosen a life style different from mine when I as completely free to choose to be like them if I wanted to.To resent them was to resent my own choice to be different from them,a choice that I was happy with.
? ? ? ? 但三個(gè)月后我不知怎地開(kāi)始覺(jué)得麥克是對(duì)的戒傻，的確是我而不是他熏挎，有性格障礙夺巩。我的時(shí)間我負(fù)責(zé)了袁。這是由我也只有我決定我該如何使用和安排我的時(shí)間笑跛。如果我要比我的實(shí)習(xí)同事努力工作投入時(shí)間更多纺裁，那是我的選擇站蝠，而那個(gè)選擇的結(jié)果我負(fù)責(zé)。 看著我的實(shí)習(xí)同事早我三四個(gè)小時(shí)離開(kāi)辦公室或許很痛苦讽膏，聽(tīng)我老婆抱怨我對(duì)家里投入時(shí)間不多或許很痛苦，但這些痛苦是我作出的選擇的結(jié)果拄丰。 如果我不想忍受這些府树，我有我選擇的自由，不去如此努力工作料按，而以不同的方式來(lái)精心安排我的時(shí)間奄侠；我的努力工作不是無(wú)情的命運(yùn)或無(wú)情的門診部主管丟給我的負(fù)擔(dān)，而是我選擇的生活方式和我安排的重要的事载矿。 當(dāng)他發(fā)生時(shí)我并沒(méi)有選擇改變我的生活方式垄潮。但隨著我態(tài)度上的改變，我對(duì)實(shí)習(xí)同事們的怨恨消失了闷盔。我有完全的自由選擇和他們一樣如果我樂(lè)意弯洗，但怨恨他們選擇和我不同的生活方式根本毫無(wú)意義。怨恨他們就是怨恨自己和他們有一個(gè)不同的選擇馁筐，一個(gè)我情愿樂(lè)意的選擇涂召。
