2020-02-25
很多事情都是慢慢figure out幻馁，如果我拿不到護(hù)照，那就是報(bào)應(yīng)越锈！
花了1.30小時(shí)聯(lián)系VFS仗嗦，UK visa，現(xiàn)在知道withdraw啦瞪浸，都是自己惹的禍儒将，我在想如果不是感覺那么聰明吏祸，在HIll club申請visa对蒲，花了500美金，又雇了車11000rp去了一趟贡翘，如果真的就是看情況而定蹈矮，我也就不會申請bloody UK visa，閑著沒事去那干嘛鸣驱，有卜耗瘛！都是經(jīng)驗(yàn)教訓(xùn)踊东，還是要面對北滥，然后move on！
好在figure out情況闸翅，bloody vFS就是不接電話再芋，然后mobitel充值500rp，還是打不了電話坚冀，就知道如果data充值济赎，至少上課沒問題。
今天就是備課唄，除此以外我所在villa超級棒司训，晨起瑜伽在一個(gè)lifted platform构捡，應(yīng)該是是一個(gè)beach bar，感覺非常不同壳猜，海浪幾乎是太大聲音勾徽，vipa時(shí)候感受希望他能夠靜下來，會去rock area游泳统扳，that is it捂蕴！
剛從Rock pool游泳回來，現(xiàn)在little pumpkin吃飯闪幽，終于喝到好的coconut cafe啥辨，風(fēng)吹的如同狂野的女人，amazing experience是坐在rock 中間盯腌，三面海水涌向我溉知，猶如天然jacuzzi，就是巨大的動力腕够，把自己扇的轉(zhuǎn)來轉(zhuǎn)去级乍，美麗絕倫的狂野浪花，有的高如1米帚湘，砸向rock玫荣，撿起水浪洶涌后平緩，沒幾個(gè)人在水里大诸，我學(xué)會觀察浪潮捅厂，和每個(gè)男人都應(yīng)該學(xué)會一些知識，我看到tide右側(cè)平緩资柔，有一條線路可以游泳焙贷，jacuzzi一陣子開始右側(cè)游向一個(gè)男人水里，時(shí)隱時(shí)現(xiàn)贿堰，海潮還是洶涌辙芍，但隨著起伏并不困難，為啥J認(rèn)為我vibe不一樣羹与，不肯和他深處游泳故硅，因?yàn)樗乓约海粋€(gè)猛子扎向水里纵搁，完全不管我吃衅，猶如Sharathi要求catch后彎腳腕，我自己身體诡渴，打死我也不會冒險(xiǎn)捐晶，生命現(xiàn)在比之前珍惜菲语，也不會海里任意冒險(xiǎn)，很多人認(rèn)為我take risk惑灵，都是可控的山上，猶如kayak和漲潮海灘hiking，有risk英支，但不是stupid risk佩憾！
其實(shí)sri lanka如果作為一個(gè)退休的地方不見得不可能，我難得遇見一個(gè)地方可以想象這個(gè)可能干花，開一個(gè)yoga retreat center妄帘，有些事情喜歡做，寫小說池凄，教課抡驼，因?yàn)榉鸾虈遥鞖夂偷乩韉iversity喜歡肿仑，人也淳樸致盟，大多數(shù)啦。是否投資尤慰？還是guest house就OK馏锡，也許想法會改變，但不無可能性伟端，古巴也想過杯道，但文化不同，佛教影響還是感同身受责蝠。就是beach能夠游泳才好党巾，somehow這附近都不合適，unawatuna很商業(yè)化玛歌，我也是被蟲子jellyfish咬的很嚴(yán)重昧港，起碼可以游泳吧擎椰，還有Japanese pagoda支子！
關(guān)于眾籌各種question，我也是耐心十足达舒，人生各種考驗(yàn)值朋，都還ok。現(xiàn)在考驗(yàn)就是護(hù)照要按時(shí)拿回來巩搏！
幾乎要換到blue horizon hotel昨登，之前那里停留過，位置正好rock上面贯底，離kayak很近丰辣，我還需要回去kayak撒强，也許今天或者明天，但想到自己真的是為了change而change笙什，還是孤獨(dú)的IBIS很棒飘哨，我有自己坐騎space，可以vipa和瑜伽琐凭，留下了芽隆！
看到virus還是分外嚴(yán)重，估計(jì)我UK visa也是因此延誤统屈，withdraw ok啦胚吁。No hard feelings.?
2.30開始kayak，迷水啦愁憔，折騰一個(gè)小時(shí)腕扶，4.15上岸，發(fā)現(xiàn)lagoon不是自己認(rèn)為的lagoon吨掌，一直認(rèn)為地圖不對蕉毯，其實(shí)自己不對，I am done with kayak, this can last a few years, always trouble, out of trouble, my right hand thumb is hurting it is from yesterday kayak fight with tides, today same, saw bird with long neck stretching out of sea, so cool. thought it is snake it is not. saw 娃娃魚, like a small crocodile, they are afraid of people so not getting closer. 筋疲力盡回來工作思犁，吃著nuts在hut代虾，接到午餐碰到法國體育老師邀請一起晚餐，猶豫一下激蹲，雖然他看起來面相不善良棉磨，口音和俄羅斯，問我很多問題学辱，提到自己兒子英語很好乘瓤，問我做啥等等，我還是答應(yīng)6.30去lounge一坐策泣，完成raja yoga第一章衙傀，多年后重新看，都是expereince才會分享萨咕。決定完成case ideo统抬。結(jié)果分心了，去蕩秋千危队，酒店幫忙的BAlE主動給我照相聪建，建議我開中餐廳和酒店，可以當(dāng)?shù)刈錾饷Ｂ剑懔艘幌陆痿铮磕昕梢再?百萬rp，就是5萬人民幣簿盅，愛嗎挥下，算了吧揍魂，費(fèi)事，但夕陽下確實(shí)美麗的海岸線讓人著迷棚瘟，是一個(gè)可以退休多呆一段時(shí)間的地方愉烙，或者寫作的地方，就是要有些事情做解取。
hypocrite 是J描述他呆的Jayshrey bahamain家族特色步责，但如此評價(jià)他人其實(shí)是自己真實(shí)寫照，口口聲聲yoga禀苦，自己做的都是相反的事情和出發(fā)點(diǎn)蔓肯，就是hypocrite偽君子。
the day when we leave for other villages, J said: today it is shivaratri, just observe to see how I take the lead for taxi.
L: all my dreams coming true after practicing years of dharma, pls lead me
J to receptionist: Sir how much to village dikwella
R: 800RP
L said to me: well the problem is I do not know how much exactly they might work together with taxi driver
L： I know exactly it should be 400, we can pay 500 to add some extra but not 800, they charge us double
we came out J asked driver how much they said 900 can lower to 800, I said let us go outside and pretend to leave. J said to driver head: Sir what is your name
Driver: Why
J: just want to address u properly and u see she is tough chinese woman I am ok with 800, no walk outside for me.
?I was a bit annoyed by what he said ok, there is no way we can negotiate and he does not want to walk with me so I compromised to say: let us go.
on the way J said: we are in such hotel to pay for premium people expect us to pay for more.?
L：sure, we save time, but we have to be careful not spoil the local price we do not want to be over charged so they charge other tourists same way, we can negotiate do not want to be seen stupid.?
j： u like negotiation do u do that all the time in your work.?
L: for work u do it everyday but I do not like it, it is just what should be done, I am said to be too nice as a business woman in China.?
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There are twice apologizing for over reaction before this:?
on bed J came over to me: I am sorry to make u uncomfortable, u invite me for retreat then I am making u feel uncomfortable?
L: no no, I am saying since I made decision to be with u, I can make compromise.
then on other day: I am not your servant u are not CEO here. again apologizing:
I am sorry I should have said it in a more nicer way or proper context.
I can see this pattern, who is this wrong red shoe girl is picking up for the reason of disparity, knowing it is not right but since it feels pretty and try to cover it up by all these sorry apologizing and sex then going with it but pain in the long run, I recognize the reality and make it a stop. knowing I was abbesses with the fact that looking fit with each other is so much attractive for me that I tend to believe all is going to work.?
There are many signs about the nature which I try to talk myself out of it from positive way.?
I attract all kinds of people but I tend to attached to the wrong man! body fitness is not equal to mind fitness, particularly the kindness of heart!
enough self reflection, move on.
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看完美麗夕陽振乏，換了衣服去了lounge蔗包，氛圍真的適合sauvignon blanc，我在搖椅上搖啊搖慧邮，lady manager不是很nice 也OK调限，juice非常rich，結(jié)果法國體育老師說不確定我們關(guān)系误澳，留在guesthouse晚餐耻矮，我call，直接刪了忆谓，bale不停問我晚上干什么裆装，估計(jì)我的荷爾蒙很強(qiáng)烈，吸引一群形形色色神經(jīng)病倡缠，這個(gè)時(shí)候非常不適合jump to another affair哨免，我告誡自己，結(jié)果搖椅晃得我惡心昙沦，回去躺椅里聽“與狼共舞”琢唾，非常應(yīng)景！
一夜睡眠很輕盾饮，估計(jì)和吃的過多有關(guān)系采桃，今天謹(jǐn)記！
