? ? ? ? 2020年2月6日 晴
? ? ? ? 休息日陽光也很好的一天，美好的不知道后面會在忙碌快一天后语婴，竟然遇到讓我失聲痛哭并全面停止手機(jī)和外界交流。一個人坐在一直以來偷懶等孩子結(jié)束舞蹈課的酒吧壓低帽檐假寐小憩并默默流淚。
? ? ? ? 早晨孩子預(yù)約了早晨10:30試工和面試弓柱，也是算她承諾的照顧好自己的言到實踐的行蜀变。我也是送她到地點后悄谐，打雞血似的亂竄一番先，接著繼續(xù)雞血明里暗里支持库北。作為顧客買了人做的第一杯珍珠奶茶爬舰。后來娃結(jié)束后捧著試工的報酬--一杯自己做的珍珠奶茶邊喝邊瞄一眼我: Mum! Can you calm down a bit! (媽! 你能少安毋躁嗎们陆？)
? ? ? ? 之所以會進(jìn)入打雞血的狀態(tài)，是因為10點后準(zhǔn)備出門情屹，一進(jìn)車?yán)镒掠柟廛囕d音響里就爆炸似的音樂想起
This girl is on fire
This girl is on fire
She's walking on fire
This girl is on fire
Looks like a girl, but she's a flame
So bright, she can burn your eyes
Better look the other way
You can try but you'll never forget her name
She's on top of the world
Hottest of the hottest girls say
Oh, we got our feet on the ground
And we're burning it down
Oh, got our head in the clouds
And we're not coming down
This girl is on fire
This girl is on fire
She's walking on fire
This girl is on fire
Everybody stands, as she goes by
Cause they can see the flame that's in her eyes
Watch her when she's lighting up the night
Nobody knows that she's a lonely girl
And it's a lonely world
But she gon' let it burn, baby, burn, baby
This girl is on fire
This girl is on fire
She's walking on fire
This girl is on fire
Oh, oh, oh,
She's just a girl, and she's on fire
聽得本來就有一些亢奮的我有一些打雞血狀態(tài)坪仇。
? ? ? ? 無數(shù)次想過放棄，無數(shù)次自己和別人提醒自己本是個普通人垃你∫挝模可是直面殘酷血淋淋的現(xiàn)實，不能無動于衷! 而且每次在遇到阻力想放棄時總是如有神助般的人物出現(xiàn)或事情發(fā)生惜颇，逼著自己去繼續(xù)走下去! 無法后退! 更不能后退!
? ? ? ? 接受完人生第一次媒體的電話訪談后皆刺，剛有一些欣欣然的成就感，就看到又一位醫(yī)務(wù)工作者逝世的噩耗凌摄。送娃去上舞蹈課羡蛾，娃進(jìn)去后我停車進(jìn)入附近的酒吧去喝一杯熱巧克力補(bǔ)充體能和平復(fù)心情锨亏。并在作為上小憩一會兒后跟酒吧工作人員說一聲謝謝，然后在夜風(fēng)中暴走平復(fù)自己屯伞。等孩子結(jié)束舞蹈課，接回家劣摇，做晚飯珠移。喝一點兒酒后已昏昏沉沉末融，倒頭就睡，卻沒想到?jīng)]睡著勾习。躺著休息的自己，頭腦越來越清醒巧婶，于是補(bǔ)記了這一篇乾颁。
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