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是那個(gè)夜晚/凌晨之后寫下來的東西敦第。Just in case anyone that I actually care about sees this 我還是把人名都換成了abbreviation. I guess it's just gonna be fun to read it in the future after some time, with some distance.
P.S. 即使只有一個(gè)短短的prelude和正文也要用0和1的小標(biāo)題分割是學(xué)計(jì)算機(jī)的理工女最后的sentiment。
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盡管我熬了通宵整個(gè)人的狀態(tài)已經(jīng)不允許我做任何除了休息以外的事情铅歼，我還是需要把這個(gè)星期發(fā)生了什么寫下來——趁著我還記得——然后告訴我自己…告訴自己什么我也不知道宦言，但是就是有些事情扇单。
上頭。簡(jiǎn)單概括就是上頭奠旺，沒什么可說的蜘澜。
事實(shí)的確是，我并沒有幾個(gè)在電影 or this kind of stuff 跟我click的朋友响疚。所以當(dāng)他可以馬上反應(yīng)過來戳梅子是哪部電影里的橋段的時(shí)候鄙信，我當(dāng)然是驚喜的。那是我認(rèn)識(shí)他大概十五分鐘之后的樣子忿晕。
包括后來all my old emos about films and pictures. and his vibe i guess. makes him at least a little bit special.
有一說一他要是不主動(dòng)reach out about梅子酒的話he would be lying in my contact list forever. left untouched.
but he did.
然后我就崩了装诡。主要的原因還是我太孤獨(dú)了。而且我的工作和生活狀態(tài)的確全面崩盤践盼。他仿佛就像是我唯一的救命稻草一樣鸦采，如果我抓不住就喘不過氣了似的。
well宏侍，當(dāng)然不是赖淤。
但是i didn’t know better. So we talked.我繼續(xù)扮演著如水的角色，無論他說什么谅河，都幫他把那個(gè)泡泡捧得更大更圓咱旱。
然后吧。
nothing绷耍。
莫名其妙的吐限，我就被叫出來了。I did panick before making this decision ——我和hxy實(shí)際經(jīng)過了激烈的討論——事實(shí)證明我真的不該去褂始。
也不是不該去诸典，就是這個(gè)時(shí)間吧它——it’s not worth it.
也算是長(zhǎng)了見識(shí)。不管是人還是音樂還是藥崎苗。其實(shí)第一次和hxy去那里附近就對(duì)那棟建筑沒有好感了狐粱。沒想到那個(gè)廣場(chǎng)里長(zhǎng)得最恐怖的就是那個(gè)club。
唯一的plus可能是鍛煉了德語(yǔ)口語(yǔ)并且認(rèn)識(shí)了一條叫豬豬的法斗胆数。
好吧我發(fā)現(xiàn)我一直都在避重就輕肌蜻。
如果這一切的主人公是 yhy i wouldn’t care a bit.
There are certainly many things I don’t understand about the scenes themselves, but I think more importantly, I didn’t understand why I was there and why he asked me to be there.
Huge confusions unresolved.
怎么說呢。
最讓我開心的瞬間是我坐在他電動(dòng)車后的幾十秒必尼。it was actually fun and nostalgic.
最讓我覺得惡心的是他離開以后所有人都在替他對(duì)我說對(duì)不起和不要難過蒋搜，甚至包括他自己篡撵。
真的，直到那之前我都覺得只是兩個(gè)人hang out而已無所謂的豆挽。
有一說一我覺得他不是認(rèn)真想叫我來育谬。
我其實(shí)無所謂他怎么對(duì)我cuz i wasnt smart enough to leave after 5min.?
Btw the liquor sucked. Cuz it reminded me of that night, that Christmas Eve. Oh damn.
The more I think about these, the more i feel wronged. The thing is, am I?
At least one good thing is, just spending an extra three hours with him makes all fantasies go away.
Now I actually feel tired. See u in four hours.
You know, the sun always rises.
噢噢，最后得補(bǔ)一句帮哈。
他不是海王嗎膛檀，那哪些小姑娘愛怎么追怎么追吧。反正誰(shuí)追誰(shuí)傻逼但汞。
嗯宿刮。
