I still want to write something about my relationship. I am not sure whether my behavior in yesterday has changed anything. It may cause him to realize that I am not the kind of person he would like. So he would end all this. He would cease chatting with me. What you should do next is stop getting in touch with him until he does. If he doesn't, that would means you had blown things up. It's over.?
Even though I felt I managed to get closer to him, nothing can be sure. I don't know whether I am being too aggressive. It seems there's nothing I can do to prevent that from happening. I just realize that I need to constantly persuade my mind that what you have now is nothing. You can't even call it a relationship. You got no permission or signal for that. You need to respect the distance he has set for you and himself. Once you cross that line, game would be over.
