This recent half a year is almost the tough period I have ever gone through for the past two decades. Things are like mysterious and tough. At the beginning of January, my mom told me she was pregnant and she wanted to give birth. I still remember it was in the day I was just back to Guangzhou from Changsha with my friend and I was extremely happy because of the perfect journey. However, when my feet stepped in the house, my mom gave me this surprise. Actually I don’t know whether it’s a surprise or a shock. I have been the only child in my family for more than 20 years and I didn’t know how to deal with such problem. Being unprepared, I just couldn’t say a word. My mom asked me for advice and I couldn’t get enough time to think about it thoroughly and rationally so I replied: “I don’t want it.” My mom started crying after hearing my reasons. She does love that little kid. I don’t care what other people are saying. What I really care is the physical condition of my mother because she is already 47 years old which means she may be bearing high risk of suffering potential diseases. Delivering a baby is not an easy thing let alone she’s no longer as strong as she was young. I started crying too because I didn’t want my mother to face such unpredictable difficulties and I was powerless to help her. Finally, we decided to have this baby. We made a bet——all things will be alright.

On the first day of May, my grandmother was sent to the hospital because of stomachache. After checking, doctor told us grandma was at the terminal stage of colon cancer. It’s positively predicted that she has 3 to 6 months alive. This news is like a thunderbolt that hits us. I have never imagined such a hale elder woman will be diagnosed as critically ill patient. Last week I went to the hospital to visit her. She was lying on the bed with bitter facial expression but trying to smile when she saw I was sitting beside her bed. Disease can be so cruel that none of us can do anything to alleviate her pain. Social status, wealth, reputation are useless when someone is in bad physical condition. We’ve learned a lot that death is inevitable and we should be treated it rationally. However, if our relatives or friends are struggling with death, we will feel desperate and powerless.