我感到我陷入了一個(gè)怪圈。
去影院不能隨心所欲地選擇，要按著豆瓣的評(píng)分逐一排序坞淮，由著影評(píng)中的只字片語(yǔ)去發(fā)現(xiàn)那些值得我付出毛爺爺?shù)钠幽ⅰ嗳绱说烂模炊且蚵犚魳返臅r(shí)間成本相對(duì)較低，在音樂上我對(duì)評(píng)價(jià)的依賴部隊(duì)翘县。如今這些曾一度困擾我的問題擴(kuò)大范圍最域。《斷舍離》锈麸、《如何閱讀一本書》諸如此類镀脂，我不厭其煩地去尋找著guidebook，仿佛只要找對(duì)了那把鑰匙忘伞，我就可以如所愿地?zé)o所不能了薄翅。
問題是，想要獲得什么的重點(diǎn)是在于努力的過(guò)程虑省，而我正在把過(guò)程這根長(zhǎng)線急遽縮短匿刮，通過(guò)他人的經(jīng)驗(yàn)來(lái)指導(dǎo)我√骄保花費(fèi)大量時(shí)間摸清概覽的充實(shí)感足夠麻痹自己熟丸，「感覺自己已經(jīng)對(duì)整件事情了如指掌了呢∥苯冢」但當(dāng)我投入越來(lái)越多的時(shí)間游離在advance層面光羞，耐心耗盡，哪來(lái)的時(shí)間把這腔熱情轉(zhuǎn)向current層面呢怀大？所以什么過(guò)后的思考纱兑，也是不需要了。
把大把的時(shí)間花在how to do上化借，我固然可以安慰自己「要打潜慎，就要打有準(zhǔn)備的仗」，實(shí)際上一直在躊躇。到底是我「不能」還是「不想」铐炫？
下一步要做的垒手，就是拋開how to do。少上知乎多看書倒信。
（以上為語(yǔ)文課的無(wú)聊涂鴉）
【補(bǔ)】
歐洲思想的考試總算結(jié)束了科贬，感覺還不錯(cuò)。前面一邊打一邊覺得復(fù)習(xí)了很久的On Liberty(J.S.Mill)已然道出了真理鳖悠。摘錄幾段：
but ,in the first place, their experience may be too narrow; or they may not have interpreted it rightly. Secondly, their interpretation of experience may be correct but unsuitable to him. Customs are made for customary circumstances, and customary characters: and his circumstances or his character may be uncustomary. Thirdly, though the customs be both good as customs, and suitable to him, yet to conform to custom, merely as custom, does not educate or develop in him any of the qualities which are the distinctive endowment of a human being.
The human faculties of perception, judgement discriminative feeling, mental activity, and even moral preference, are exercised only in making a choice.
