It is your demons to control yourself which let you to consume yourself. Whatever you do or not you still are yourself.
Trying to decrease the time to think about it. It has nothing and no any meaningful.
There is only one reason is that you afraid of the result and you don't want to responsible for the result. So that you can have excuse to escape the wrong choice.
Thinking about it you have a little childish and immature.
Whatever you done just choice to face it. The world won't change just because of your action. Don't expect too much.
