《依然愛麗絲》是一部既溫馨又感人,朱麗安·摩爾主演的女主人公愛麗絲土至,由一個事業(yè)成功的大學(xué)語言教師购对,被確診患有阿爾茲海默綜合征,一點點喪失記憶的過程陶因。
整部影片沒有大的戲劇沖突骡苞,沒有跌昂起伏的人生經(jīng)歷,而把筆墨著重于表現(xiàn)一個普通的美國中產(chǎn)階級在面對阿爾茲海默綜合征一系列心理和行為變化楷扬。當(dāng)女主人公Alice由自己的私人醫(yī)生確診為阿爾茨海默綜合征時解幽,是一種深深的絕望,一句“I wish I had cancer.”(我更希望自己得的是癌癥)烘苹,說破了Alzheimer不被大眾所接受的現(xiàn)狀躲株。其實一切外界的言語都將回歸于自身,Alice記憶力慢慢喪失的過程镣衡,被導(dǎo)演精確的捕捉到霜定。從講課時專業(yè)術(shù)語的突然卡殼,到在熟悉的晨跑跑到上忘記了回家的路廊鸥,記憶的喪失是從遺忘一個個日常生活片段開始的望浩。
在晨跑途中疑惑于熟悉道路的Alice
當(dāng)Alice不斷否認(rèn)自己,不能接受自己的癥狀惰说,極端的舉動磨德,是錄制了一段視頻,她在視頻中一步步指導(dǎo)未來的自己吆视,通過安眠藥典挑,把自己殺死。主人公的悲哀在于揩环,當(dāng)她真的把一切都忘記搔弄,按照視頻的指示找到那一大瓶安眠藥的時候,已經(jīng)忘了為什么要拿起藥瓶了丰滑。
當(dāng)然,幫助Alice逐漸接納自己的癥狀倒庵,由掙扎逐漸變?yōu)閷庫o的褒墨,是她的家庭。影片最終回歸到家庭的力量擎宝,丈夫的理解郁妈,最小女兒的支持與陪伴,甚至大女兒孩子的降生绍申,都使得Alice逐漸找回自己噩咪,接納這個逐漸喪失記憶的自己顾彰。
在Alice開始正視自己的疾病時,也是她找回自己的時候胃碾。下面附上女主演在片中的一段講稿涨享。
早上好,能來到這里是我的榮幸
Good morning, it’s an honor to be here.
詩人Elizabeth Bishop曾經(jīng)寫道: “ ‘失去’的藝術(shù)并不難掌握
The poet Elizabeth Bishop once wrote: “The art of losing isn’t hard to master.
很多事情看上去都終將會失去仆百,
So many things seems filled with the intent to be lost,
這種‘失去’并不意味著災(zāi)難厕隧。”
and their lost is no disaster.”
我不是個詩人俄周,我只是以一個患有早期阿茲海默癥的普通人
I am not a poet, I’m a person living with early on-set Alzheimer’s
正因為如此吁讨,我發(fā)現(xiàn)我每一天都在學(xué)習(xí)‘失去’的藝術(shù)
And as that person, I find myself learning the art of losing every day
失去了我的理智和方向,失去了物件峦朗,失去了睡眠
Losing my bearings, losing objects, losing sleep
最重要的是失去了記憶
But mostly, losing memories.
我一生都在積累各種各樣的記憶建丧,某種意義上成為了我最珍貴的財產(chǎn)
All my life, I have accumulated memories, they have become in a way my most precious possessions.
我遇見我丈夫的那一天,我第一次拿到我寫的教科書的時候
The night I met my husband, the first time I held my textbook in my hands.
我有了孩子波势,交了朋友茶鹃,環(huán)游世界
having children, making friends, travelling the world.
都是我生活中的積累,都是我工作如此努力的原因
everything I've accumulated in life, everything I've worked so hard for.
現(xiàn)在一切都被剝奪了
Now all that is being ripped away
你們可以想象艰亮?或者你們也曾經(jīng)歷過闭翩?
As you can imagine, or as you know,
這簡直是地獄
This is hell。
但情況還在變糟
But it gets worse
我們早已不是原來的自己迄埃,誰還能認(rèn)真地對待我們呢疗韵?
Who can take us seriously when we are so far from who we once were?
我們怪異的舉止和笨拙的話語改變了他人對我們的看法
Our strange behavior and fumbled sentences change other’s perception of us,
也改變了我們對自己的看法
and our perception of ourselves
我們變得可笑,失去能力又滑稽
We become ridiculous, incapable, comic’
都不是我們該有的樣子侄非,只是我們的疾病讓我們變成了這樣
But this is not who we are, this is our disease.
和其它疾病一樣
And like any disease,
某種原因?qū)е禄剂诉@種病蕉汪,同樣會有一劑良方將其治愈
It has a cause, it has a progression, and it could have a cure.
我最大的愿望是,我的孩子逞怨、我們的孩子者疤、我們的下一代不用面對我們正在面對的一切。
My greatest wish is that my children, our children, the next generation do not have to face what I am facing.
但至少到目前為止我還活著
But for the time being, I’m still alive.
我知道我還活著
I know I’m alive.
我有深愛的人叠赦,有我想完成的事情驹马,我責(zé)怪自己不能記清事情,
I have people I loved dearly, I have things I wanna do with my life. I rail against myself for not being able to remember things
但是每一天我都經(jīng)歷著純粹的幸福和愉悅
But I still have moments in the day of pure happiness and joy.
請不要認(rèn)為我在經(jīng)受痛苦除秀,我并不痛苦糯累, 我在努力掙扎
And please, do not think I am suffering, I am not suffering, I am struggling.
掙扎著融入掙扎著,繼續(xù)和過去的我保持聯(lián)系
Struggling to be part of things, to stay connected to who I once was.
我告訴自己册踩,活在當(dāng)下
So living the moment, I tell myself.
這真的是我現(xiàn)在唯一能做到的泳姐,活在當(dāng)下,不要被擠垮暂吉!
It’s really all I can do, live the moment, and not beat myself up too much……..
不要為了去掌握‘失去’的藝術(shù)而把自己擠垮
And not beat myself up too much for mastering the art of losing.
盡管如此胖秒,我會試著記住今天在這里的講話
One thing I’ll try to hold onto though, is the memory of speaking here today.
這段記憶會消失缎患,我知道它會消失,也許明天就會消失
It will go , I know it will, It may be gone by tomorrow,
但是今天在這里的講話對我意義重大
But it means so much to be talking here today
因為以前那個雄心勃勃的我總是被交流的魅力所折服
Like my old ambitious self who was so fascinated by communication
感謝大家給我提供這次機(jī)會阎肝,這對我來說意義重大挤渔,謝謝大家
Thank you for this opportunity, it means the world to me. Thank you.
影片的最后,小兒女問了母親盗痒,“Nothing’s lost forever.”(什么是永恒的呢蚂蕴?)是什么呢?她問母親俯邓。已經(jīng)完全喪失了記憶的母親骡楼,傻傻笑著說道,“LOVE”稽鞭。當(dāng)一切記憶都喪失鸟整,“我”將不是記憶中的“我”,活下去的理由只有“愛”朦蕴,只有家人之間篮条,人與人之間的那一絲溫情。
作者:和小寶~養(yǎng)老BAR