我們都經(jīng)歷過極度的孤獨(dú)像捶，書籍上陕、宗教、萬物都杳如黃鶴拓春，我們內(nèi)心極度孤獨(dú)释簿、空虛。多數(shù)人都不能面對(duì)這種空虛與孤獨(dú)硼莽，所以落荒而逃庶溶。此時(shí)，心理依賴就成了我們求助的靠山懂鸵，因?yàn)槲覀儾荒塥?dú)自支撐偏螺，我們必須求助于廣播、讀書或聊天匆光，東拉文化砖茸，西扯藝術(shù)，喋喋不休殴穴。

但我們遲早都會(huì)走到那一步，要面對(duì)內(nèi)心極度的自我孤絕感货葬。也許采幌，我們擁有體面的職位，賣力工作震桶，著書立說休傍，但內(nèi)心仍有巨大的空洞，我們渴望填補(bǔ)空洞蹲姐，方法之一就是心理依賴磨取。我們運(yùn)用心理依賴、娛樂柴墩、服務(wù)教堂忙厌、宗教、酗酒江咳、女色等等來填補(bǔ)逢净、掩蓋空洞。如果我們發(fā)現(xiàn)，掩蓋空洞根本沒用爹土，完全是徒勞——不僅是嘴上明白甥雕，也不是信誓旦旦地認(rèn)同這句話，而是看清這套把戲的荒謬十足胀茵，那樣我們就能真正面對(duì)真實(shí)社露。這不是從依賴感中掙脫的問題，因?yàn)榻饷摳惺翘摶貌粚?shí)的琼娘，那只是對(duì)事實(shí)的逆反峭弟。我們?yōu)楹尾恢泵嬲鎸?shí)，看看會(huì)發(fā)生什么轨奄？

這里又產(chǎn)生了“能觀心（the observer）”與“所觀物（the observed）”的問題孟害。能觀心說：“我看到了內(nèi)心的空虛（所觀物），我煩它挪拟“の瘢”然后逃之夭夭。能觀心又說：“我與那空虛是井水不犯河水玉组！”但谎柄，那個(gè)觀察的你（能觀），就是空虛的你（所觀）惯雳，并非有一個(gè)空虛朝巫，又另有一個(gè)能觀心去觀察它。能觀就是所觀石景，當(dāng)能所泯化合一時(shí)劈猿，思維與感受將產(chǎn)生巨大的革命。

——克里希那穆提《生命書：365觀心日課》（The Book of Life: Daily Meditations with Krishnamurti）

Face the Fact and See What Happens …

We have all had the experience of tremendous loneliness, where books, religion, everything is gone and we are tremendously, inwardly, lonely, empty. Most of us can’t face that emptiness, that loneliness, and we run away from it. Dependence is one of the things we run to, depend on, because we can’t stand being alone with ourselves. We must have the radio or books or talking, incessant chatter about this and that, about art and culture.

So we come to that point when we know there is this extraordinary sense of self-isolation. We may have a very good job, work furiously, write books, but inwardly there is this tremendous vacuum. We want to fill that and dependence is one of the ways. We use dependence, amusement, church work, religions, drink, women, a dozen things to fill it up, cover it up. If we see that it is absolutely futile to try to cover it up, completely futile—not verbally, not with conviction and therefore agreement and determination—but if we see the total absurdity of it … then we are faced with a fact. It is not a question of how to be free from dependence; that’s not a fact; that’s only a reaction to a fact…. Why don’t I face the fact and see what happens?

The problem now arises of the observer and the observed. The observer says, “I am empty; I don’t like it,” and runs away from it. The observer says, “I am different from the emptiness.” But the observer is the emptiness; it is not emptiness seen by an observer. The observer is the observed. There is a tremendous revolution in thinking, in feeling, when that takes place.

——克里希那穆提《生命書：365靜心日課》（The Book of Life: Daily Meditations with Krishnamurti）

MARCH 10